Without regrets [redwood book 2]

Chapter sixteen

I couldn't fight it anymore, Enzo made his way into my heart without any struggles. He is the only one who knows my full life story. I told him because I felt like I could trust him. I came to care about him. He has become my best friend. I know that sounds crazy. If someone told me three weeks ago I could befriend any of these people, I would have laughed. But know I'm starting to care about them.

Especially about Cameron and Enzo.

I'm not worried about Enzo, Cameron on the other hand... I'm scared. I haven't told him much about my past. I know it's frustrating him but he is still patient.

Last night he asked about my mum and what happened with her. He told me that he knows the reason why she went in but he wanted me to tell him the rest. That was sweet. Unfortunately I had nothing to say about my mum since I have never met her, don't know anything about her. I literally have no idea how she looks.

It's getting harder and harder to avoid Cameron's mum questions.

And I know what you are thinking... why are you making life harder for yourself? This guy seems like a understanding person. He's sweet, hot and badass. He's kinda scary but never to you. Kinda.

The thing is that Cameron has the perfect family. Great younger brother, sassy but sweet baby sister, cool mum and dad and a twin sister that he clearly loves but isn't really talking... to..her? I don't know much about that situation but what I am saying is that, I don't want him to pity me. I don't want him to look at me differently.

When he realises that I had no family expect Joe, he is going to push his family on me. That's pressuring them and me. Do you know what that means... fake hugs and smiles. I don't want my in laws to fake kiss me because they were forced to love- woah. Did I just say in laws

Okay Ryan... ha..ha getting ahead of yourself over there.

Marriage?

You're just realising that you might actually like the guy and you suddenly thinking about marrying the guy. Staying here. With people who are furry part time.

Haha.

What a joker?

"Can you breathe normally?"Enzo snaps.

"No you idiot I'm panicking! Get me something"I weese out.

He tilts his head to the side and says "You know you are kinda turning blue"

"ENZO!"I shout.

He jumps up suddenly realising that I'm serious.

"I will get a bag"he says with urgency lacing his voice.

"Make that two. Think I need to throw up"I gag.

His eyes widen and he rushes out. When he returns, he practically throws the paper bags at me.

"I need something stronger then this!"I snap at him. "The vomit is going to go throw"

I gag again

"Don't gag because if you gag then I will gag"

I gag. He gags. I gag again because he's gagging.

"Why don't you run to the bath room"he suggests almost shouting.

"WHY YOU SHOUTING AT ME!?"I shout.

"I'M NOT SHOUTING"he shouts back.

"Yes you are"I cry.

"WHY ARE YOU CRYING?"he yells frustrated.

"I don't know"I cry out because honestly I don't know.