SNL 2020

Losing Battle pt2

My father won't disown me. Ever. Not that my Mama would but who could blame her if she will disown her lying son. She was right, she never encouraged me to lie my way out of any problem. She taught me to be honest and sincere to myself and to others. I wasted her teachings by lying to her over and over.

Me: All those times that I got hurt and never confessed or shared them to her. I deprived her of chances to console or comfort me. You heard her...she thinks her main purpose in life is to be my mother. That comforting me when I am hurt was when she felt like she is earning her title as my mother. And I took that from her, many times...

Qing: Dayu ah...

Me: (sniffing) Why am I such a failure as her son? Ugh! Why are we such failures as sons of our parents?

Qing: We are not perfect, that's why? And it will be their fault if they think their sons are perfect.

Me: (snorting) Oh, you don't have to worry about that. I don't think our parents think we are perfect now. My mother is so close to selling me to gypsies for a cheap price.

Qing: (chuckling) Tell her to contact me first, I will buy you in a heartbeat.

Me: (sighing) At this rate, we won't be married in ten years, let alone five. All our plans are doomed, Qing.

Qing: (snickering) If you think this will stop me from marrying you, then we wasted all these years we have been together since you learned nothing about me. Nothing and no one can stop me from changing your status from single to my spouse, Dayu ah.

Me: I know that. But I don't think we can get married alone or without our parents.

Qing: Mama said she will attend our wedding. We just have to inform her of the time and place.

Me: Aiyooo...she was unhappy when she said that. (sighing) Qing, lets stop deluding ourselves...your Mama doesn't like me anymore for you. My Mama is the same, she now doesn't like you for me. We have fallen out of their favors and it's mostly our faults. I think I took for granted how much your mother liked me...

Qing: (snorting) You stop deluding yourself, my mother loves you. She loves you so much and...

Qing suddenly stopped talking. Then he groaned.

Qing: Oh we are so stupid. We are so stupid.

Me: What? Why? What?!

Qing: We are doing this the wrong way. I should be there and you should be here.

Me: (confuse) What do you mean?

Qing: I should be there asking your parents to forgive us. You should be here asking my parents to forgive us. Come on! It's obvious, Mama loves you so much she couldn't possibly resist you...

Me: Qing she hates me!

Qing: She doesn't hate you. My mother doesn't do hate. Same for your mother. Our parents doesn't do hate. They are hurt, Dayu. They are deeply disappointed. And the only way we can fix this is if we can convince them to forgive us. But not this way. They will keep digging their feet because when they see us, they see blood and betrayal. But if we will switch places...

Me: (like in trance) There might be a chance that they will soften a little. You know, my Mama said it the other day that she will gladly have you here instead of me.

Qing: (nodding) See? We just have to switch places. (sighing) Not gonna sugatcoat it though Love, it's still won't be easy even if we do this.

Me: I know.

Qing: (staring at me intently through the screen of my device) Mama might say or do something that would meant to hurt you...

Me: And I won't take it to heart. I know. We all do or say mean things when we are mad. You do it. I do it. Why would I think Mama won't?