just want to start by saying, you're not fucking ready. i wasn't fucking ready and IM THE AUTHOR TF
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"you wanna go out tonight?" i ask. "sure" elle nods, not looking up from her phone. "should i wear something nice?" she asks. "yeah, i'll get us a reservation" i answer. "alright" she agrees and stands up from her seat. she walks to her closet and looks through it for a few minutes. "let me surprise you, okay?" she suggests. "okay. i'm gonna go stop by the hotel where finn is staying and pick up some clothes" i tell her. "alright. i love you" she responds. "i love you too" i smile and press my lips to hers.
okay, maybe i can't wait. but it's been a week. i think that's the longest i can wait. i want elle to be my wife. the sooner i propose, the sooner we get married.
finneas and claudia came back from home for the weekend. they went home after the album release party but decided they wanted to come back for a little because they didn't get to see enough of the city.
"hey, did you bring the suit i asked you to?" i ask once i get to the hotel. "yep" finneas nods. he looks through his suitcase for a few seconds before handing me it. it's folded up neatly and in an airtight back. "thank you" i sing and take it out. i set up the ironing board the hotel provides and iron out the creases that the folds made. once i'm satisfied i change in the bathroom.
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billie but without the shoes because those are not it ^^^
"you look great billie. good luck" finneas tells me with a wide smile. "thanks finn. i'll text you and tell you how it goes. i gotta go but i love you" i respond and kiss his cheek. "love you too billie" he hugs me before i walk out.
i get home at around 7:45 and sit down in the living room. "snazzy" elizabeth wiggles her eyebrows as she sits down next to me. "thank you elizabeth, i try" i laugh and play with my blazer, showing off the suit. "here she comes" amelia sings from upstairs. i stand up from my spot on the couch and see elle walking down the stairs as her heels click against the wood.
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elle (note, it's not the same dress as the one she wore to the album release party)^^^
"god damn" i mumble as she approaches me. "elle, you look angelic" i tell her. "thank you" she smiles and poses, showing herself off. i put my arms around her and admire her.
she's gonna be my wife
holy shit
"let me get a picture of you two" amelia orders, holding up a camera. "why?" elle furrows her eyebrows. "because, you two look so fancy" she covers up. "okay" elle laughs. i keep my arm around her waist and she leans her head on my shoulder. "come on, smile" amelia frowns as neither of us smile. "in the next one" elle defends. we take several and elizabeth shouts out different poses. "oh! now stand back to back and do finger guns like you're in james bond!" she suggests. "ugh, fine" elle rolls her eyes. after the last picture we say goodbye and finally leave.
"no way" elle's jaw drops as we get to the restaurant. "yep" i nod pridefully. "billie, this place is expensive" she whisper yells at me. "only the best for you" i shrug. we get to our seats and i hold elle's hand from across the table. "i love you, you know that?" i ask, kissing her hand. "i love you too. what's all this about bil?" she asks. "nothing, i just wanted to do something special for you" i lie. "bil, if you wanted to do something special you could've just gotten me snacks! you know this" she laughs. "i know. i don't know, i guess i just wanted to do something extra special tonight, spoil you a little" i defend. "alright, fine" she shakes her head with a laugh. i play with the box in my pocket, opening and closing it as i recite what i'm going to say in my head.
after dinner we get back in the car but elle seems upset. "what's wrong?" i ask, putting my hand over her's. "nothing" she shrugs. "are you sure?" i ask. "i'm great billie, tonight was wonderful" she reassures me. "good, we still have two more stops though" i say, trying to hide a smile.
we get to the next place and elle claps. "yay" she exclaims as we walk inside. i drove us to the ice cream shoppe we went to when we hung out for the first time. we order and i take her out to the car. "are we not gonna sit down?" she furrows her eyebrows. "we'll eat it at the next place" i explain as i start driving.
i get to our final destination and elle puts her hands over her heart. "you're the cutest billie" she frowns. i took us up to an overlook that she took me to a long time ago. she says it's her happy place and had never brought anyone else up there before. she said she wanted it to be our place. from then on we'd come here any chance we got. i take out the blanket i put in the trunk and spread it out on the ground. we eat our ice cream and look over the city. "this is perfect billie" elle tells me as we both finish our ice cream. "you're perfect." i respond, tracing my thumb over her jawline. i cup her cheek and kiss her, feeling her melt into the kiss. "listen elle, i've been meaning to say this for i don't know how long and i think it's the perfect time to finally let it out" i start. "before i met you, i was in a very dark place. and then when you came around, it was like i was always smiling, always happy. and then when we broke up, i dove right back into that dark place. and now that we're back together, i don't ever want be apart. you are the light in my life. i cannot stress this enough, i never want to go back into the darkness. i want to spend the rest of my life in your light, making you as happy as you make me everyday. i want to have children with you and grow old with you. i want to experience everything with you by my side. you make everything so much better. please never make me go back into the darkness. elle vivian evans, will you marry me?" i ask. i open the box and see the tears in her eyes. "yes" she sniffles, hugging me tightly and making me tip over. i hug her back and feel tears slide down my face. "i love you so, so much" i whisper against her skin and kiss her shoulder. "i love you too angel" she responds. she pulls away and i shakily slide the ring onto her finger. i grab the back of her neck and pull her into a loving kiss in which we both melt into. "wait a second, does this mean i'm going to be mrs billie eilish pirate baird o'connell?" she giggles. "yep, you're stuck with me" i laugh through tears, wiping hers away. "damn. i guess you'll have to do" she jokes. "shut up, you know you love me" i shake my head and laugh. "you're absolutely right. i love you so much" she smiles and hugs me again. "i love you too"
