I've Never Been This Close

Are We Really Close Enough?

I woke up feeling a little better just like yesterday. I checked the time and it was just 5:50 am.

Strangely today is the third day that I woke up earlier than my alarm clock which is set to ring on 6:10, 6:25, 6:35 and 6:50 am. I set multiple alarms cause I usually have a hard time waking up every morning that's why I'm either late or exactly right on time on my 8:00 am class. 

I took a bath and prepared to go to school earlier so I can still have time to eat breakfast at the canteen. As usual, I still can't tie my necktie properly so I just let it hang loose with a knot I don't how long will last. 

I felt a sudden palpitation of my heart. I felt a little nervous. Oh God. I hope this is not a bad sign. It's not really good when I got too happy for so many days cause I kind of can't stop thinking that something terrible will happen to me again in exchange of the happiness I felt cause that happened a lot in the past.

"Aish! I should not think about it that much." I said to my self.

It was already 6:45 am when I got out of my room. My travel time with bus is around 30 minutes so I need to hurry already cause I still need to walk for more or less 10 minutes to reach the bus stop.

 "How I wish I already have my own car so I can fully enjoy my freedom here. Aish!" I blurt out as I wait for the elevator to arrive.

*Ding!*

"Finally~" I whispered as I entered the elevator looking down as I feel disappointed and did not pay attention to the other person inside the elevator.

"Hey! Good morning, Nong!" someone said with a familiar voice but I just waii and greeted back without even looking at him as I was still not ready to talk cause I'm starving already.

 He suddenly tapped me on my shoulder which startled me so I look up to him.

"Hia Win?" I said out of shock cause I am seriously not expecting to see him here.

He was the last person I saw last night cause we ate dinner together after the practice and now he is the first person I saw. What is this now?!?

I'm lucky with the dinner these three consecutive nights since I always get a free ride up to the bus stop but I can't be sure that meeting him this early is a good sign. Will he be the 'aftermath' or the cause of something terrible to happen to me today? I kinda hope not of course cause basically we are already in a somehow peaceful terms ever since he became my personal trainer.

"Are you heading to school already?" he asked cheerfully. 

I truly envy how 'bright' he always seem, tho I am not sure if he really is just a cheerful person or maybe his striking blonde hair just make him look this shining.

"Chai krap." I answered almost in a whisper.

"What time is your first class?" he asked again then put his arms over my shoulders.

I stared at his hand for a short while thinking how this guy acts like we are really close already to be this touchy. I feel a little weird within me. Well aside from Manaow and Pharm, I really didn't have other close friends before cause I used to be treated as an outcast everywhere I go.

"Hey, I just asked you a question." he said as he slightly shake me.

"I have class at 8, hia" I answered.

"Great! We still have enough time. Please eat breakfast with me first na?" he said in a soft tone but still sounding as a command rather than a request.

I was thinking of how to reject him cause I don't want others to see me spending time with someone as popular as him. All I wanted was just peaceful time to eat.