*Athena's pov*
"umm.. Mahogany can I talk to you in private??" I asked so scared
"Sure, sorry boys but... goodbye" Mahogany said while pushing the boys out and closing the door
I was so nervous to tell Mahogany the problem about the beach, I felt like i was going to have a panic attack and just start to cry because what if they saw my scars and start to wonder and ask question. I just can't do that.
"Yea, Athena what you need?" Mahogany ask then started slurping up her freeze
"You know my...cuts, that I have? Well, and you know we are going to the.....beach and I have to wear a swimsuit and...t-they w-will see my s-scars" I stuttered
"Oh shoot, I forgot, well uumm...how about this, let's say you "forgot your swimsuit" and you bring a light cardigan and a pair of shorts, then go swimming like that? maybe?" Mahogany said
"That might work, okay let's try that first, but do you have a cardigan? I left mine at home, stupid me" I stated while lightly slapping my head
"Of course I do, but I left it in my backpack and its in Aaron's room" She added
We both decided to go with each other since I feel more comfortable not being alone, I have a huge fear of being alone, but not unless i'm with my blade. Anyways, I opened the door and saw Taylor??! , does that mean he was..noo, please don't tell me he heard our conversation, it would be so bad if he did
"Were you listening to our conversation?" Mahogany inquired while folding her arms
" Nooooo....." Taylor replied as his voice got higher at the end
"Taylor, please, did were you listening to our conversation" I begged
"Fine, I was listening, but only because....yea I got no reason" Taylor spoke
"What did you exactly hear? Like exactly hear" Mahogany asked while getting really mad like as her voice got soft to rough
"Hold on I tell you inside, let's go in your room" Taylor added as he walked inside the room
I can't believe Taylor did this, eavesdropped on us, and heard our private conversation. What if he tells the others especially what if he tells Matt, no no no Matt will scream at me and saying "why are you doing this?? You should have told me this was happening. We can help you, Me and the guys, Mahogany, and the fans" and then a whole a speech, trust me, he did this to me when I was trying to scream to saying that i'm worthless piece of shit, that no one wants. Matt doesn't know that its the fans who ruined me
"This is what I heard, that you....." Taylor suddenly stop and almost began to tear up and then he took a deep breath
"That you about the cuts showing and your scared that at the beach, we will see the scars and you want to hide it, so Mahogany said to fake that you forgot your swimsuit and you borrow one of Mahogany's cardigans and you wear some shorts to hide it" Taylor explained while his eyes got watery
"Please Athena show me your scars" Taylor insisted
Then I looked at Mahogany scared, then she nodded yes. I lifted up both of my sleeves, showing all the cuts and scars, fresh ones and new ones, knowing that Taylor was devastated that I was cutting. Also knowing that there is a few giant ones, then I began starting to tear up and Mahogany too.
"How long were you doing this?" Taylor asked while tears poured out of his eyes
"2-2 y-years" I stuttered while pain was killing me inside, that I told Taylor about it, not even Mahogany knew how long I was cutting. Then Mahogany, started to walk to her bed and cry hard
"How come you never told us? We could have helped" Taylor asked
"I didn't feel like that was necessary, plus I felt like no one cared, you know? Like not even the fans like me, they fucking hate me, and told me to die and that what made me going into this, like i'm stuck and I can't get out" I quaked
"Athena, please don't cut anymore, I want you here, alive because your amazing and awesome, I don't want to lose a really amazing friend" Taylor gulped while hugging me
"I want to tell you something, Athena, there's this little fishy I know, she always told me this when I was down or upset, she told just keep swimming" Mahogany said while getting off the bed and went up to me and put her both arms on my shoulder
"Taylor and Mahogany, just please do one thing for me" I asked while wiping my tears
"Anything" Taylor said
"Anything but hurting you or anything that involves that killing you" Mahogany explained
"Don't tell any of the others, especially not Matt" I begged
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Awful Awakening
FanfictionAthena Espinosa, a girl who just wants to be happy but she suffers from depression and anxiety, she always suffered ever since she always wants to end it all but she also wants to be with friends and family. Joining Magcon was a great yet terrible d...
