Diaries: Colors

Little Things

Home. Even though the honeymoon was more than amazing, you miss what you're accustomed to. As soon as my foot hit the floor of our home, I threw all my bags on the floor & jumped on the couch. There's nothing like home. I snuggled with a pillow & I felt a body snuggle up with me.

"You really missed it," he said.

"Yeah. What do you wanna do now?" I asked.

"I just wanna stay like this."

"Okay," I surrendered.

"I love you," he said.

"I love you more," I told him.

"Doubt it."

I turned around so we were face-to-face. I smiled & he touched my nose.

"I don't think you know what you're talking about, sweetie," I say.

"I'm sure that I know exactly what I'm talking about. As soon as I saw you, I thought to myself, 'Wifey'," he said, making me smile harder.

"Well, Mr. Flirts-A-Lot, I think it's time for a nap. How about you?"

"You know we never finished round 31 in Mexico..." he smirked.

"I know. Maybe later," I say, patting his 'friend'.

"I'm holding you to that."

"I never promised you anything," I roll my eyes playfully.

"You can't tell me anything, dear," he whispers.

"Wow! You're right for once!" I cheered sarcastically.

"Shut up. I'm always right," he mumbles into my neck.

He wraps one leg over me & grinds against me. We just got back from a straight week of making love. Let me, at least, rest for a day. I groan as he pushes himself harder against me.

"Stop, babe," I sigh.

"But, why?"

"I'm tired, honey. Later, later, later," I tell him. "Baby?"

"Yeah?"

"When we were in Mexico, did we even use a condom?"

He stopped his grinding immediately & looked at me wide-eyed. That just told me the answer to that question. Great, now I'm probably pregnant. It's not that I don't want to have kids but just not now. We've been married for a little over a week. Now we probably made a third person. I don't know if I'm even ready to be a mother yet. I'm still young myself. I'm 23. I still have a year of college going on. This is too much.

"I don't think we did, Maya."

"The look on your face when I asked gave the answer away already."

"We need a pregnancy test," he said. "I came in you how many times? Yeah. Do you want me to get them for you?"

"We just got back. Maybe later on in the week," I compromised.

"Okay."

**Skips 6 months**

"Jacob! Can you get me some ice cream & green beans?"

"Yeah. What kind of ice cream?" he asked, exhausted.

"You know what? Come lay with me instead," I say.

He came up the stairs looking as tired as only God knows what. I know work was hard for him & nagging him to death isn't helping. When he lays down, I take off his shirt & tell him to lay on his stomach. He needed a massage. I let his ponytail out & play some Jhené Aiko. She is so soothing to me. (She's my bae❤️) I go to the bathroom to find some oil. When I find what I'm looking for, I wobble back into the room to find him drifting in & out of sleep. I rub his back a little & he sighs. I would get on top of him but I don't want to kill him. I sit beside him & put some oil on my hands & just rub his back up & down slowly. I'm not a professional but his groans & sighs told me that I was doing a pretty good job. After a while, he fell asleep. He looked so peaceful. I put on my shoes & jacket & headed downstairs quietly so I wouldn't wake him. I got into the car & went to the store to get my ice cream & green beans. I rubbed my stomach as the twins kicked around. I can't wait until they get here. This kicking has got to stop. It really hurts. Looking around for the frozen foods isle, I saw someone that I haven't seen in a long time. Chresanto August. I walk as fast as my swollen legs could take me over to him. I wonder if he still looks the same. I tap his shoulder & he turns around, confused. He looks at me a little longer & a smile lights up his face.

"Maya Keys? Is that really you?" he asked.

"Yes, it is. Well, I'm married now so I'd be Maya Perez," I state.

"Oh. How are you? And who is this?" he rubs my belly.

"They are Christian & Tristian. I'm 6 months already. It's hard to believe, honestly," I say.

"You're having twins? I remember you saying that you wanted twins when we.... You know," he said, awkwardly.

"Yeah. How are you, Chres?" I say, automatically calling him by his nickname.

"I'm good. Single as a Pringle," he jokes.

"Oh," I laugh a little. "So what do you do now?"

"I am an engineer, actually."

"Oh, okay. I'm in college still. I'm going to be a psychologist," I say with pride.

"Uh oh. You gone be bringing those big bucks, huh?"

"Hopefully," I smile.

His phone vibrates in his pocket & he checks it. He tells me that he has to go & that it was good to see me again. I tell him likewise & he leaves. It was good to see him again. I wanted to know how he was doing now anyways. I go to the checkout line with my things, pay for them & go back home. When I open the door, I see Jacob on the couch, watching tv. He hears me coming in & walks over to me.

"Where were you?" he asks sternly.

"I went to the store. Why are you up?"

"I didn't feel you beside me & I looked all over the house for you," he confessed. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Sorry, babe. You were so tired & I didn't want to put any more pressure on you so I massaged you to sleep so I could get my ice cream & green beans."

"I would've got them for you. You don't need to be doing too much. You know that."

"But I'm not going to wear you out, trying to get you to cater to my every need. You need rest & relaxation, too."

"I know but you & my babies are more important," he says, caressing my stomach.

He crouches down & kisses my belly while rubbing it some more. Looking down at him makes me tear up. I always knew he'd be a great dad & an even better husband. He's all I could ever ask for & more. I run my hand through his curls as he comes back up.

"I love you, miel," he says, kissing me.

"I love you, too, Jake," I respond, kissing back.

"I think it's your turn for a massage, baby," he says, leading me upstairs.

"Are we going to make a little love up there?"

"Knowing me, we're going to make love, have sex, & fxck up there. Get ready, Maya. I hope the babies don't mind," he laughs.

Awe. I know it seems like Jakey is perfect but hopefully, I can come up with something that messes that up soon. Well, that's all with me. Deuces✌️❤️.

_Zee❤️