broken wings

13

yerim gasps loudly when her eyes was wide open. she look around trying to get her bearings. she was back in the hotel room. in front of her is jungkook, looking at her deep in her eyes.

"what the fuck was that ?!" she asks, her voice was hoarse. she just realized that she was crying. "what happened to me ? what happened to you and your— wings ?!" she stopped mid-sentence. still not believe she is saying weird shit like wings.

"amaranth, we aren't human."

her jaws dropped dramatically, this shit again. "wait, no. listen to me once." he cut her thoughts off. "how do you think i am able to control your thoughts ? how do you think i know where you are, all the shits about you." jungkook asks, his voice strong and strict.

yerim was left speechless. she looked up at him, waiting for more explanation. he sighs before continue, "i am one of the fallen." he admits.

"what are you talking about ?" she disturbed.

"amaranth, what you saw just now is real. it happened to you and me. you won't be able to remember it because your memories had been erased. you can't remember anything about me or your true self. you aren't human. you are nephilim." he spits in one breath. yerim opens her mouth to say something but nothing really came in her thoughts.

she looks up at him, still in disbelief. "nephilim ?" she repeats. "yes. it was a blood mix of fallen angels and normal human. as you saw earlier, your father is the leader of all nephilims." he explains. yerim laugh, humorless due to disbelief. "why did he hate fallen so much ?"

"nephilims hate angels because we use their body to do what we want. fallen angels can't feel anything. you might feel our body but we can't."

"how did you become one of the fallen ? and how did i got the punishment ?" she wanted to know. she wants to know why she cried blood tears. why was he tied up in front of all the people. why did they get the punishment.

"we fell in love with each other."

yerim's heart wrenched violently. she wanted to believe what jungkook said was a lie. "why would falling in love is wrong ?" she knows she already have the answers. they came from different culture. jungkook isn't nephilim or she wasn't the fallen. jungkook sighs.

"i was banned from heaven because the archangels found out about us. they ripped my wings in front of all of you. that's when you were called by your father. he refused to believe, he don't even want to punish you. but he must be fair with all of his races. he gave you the lightest punishment nephilim ever had." jungkook said.

"thrown to abandonment." she repeats. jungkook nods. he reaches out to hold her hand. pulling it closer to him as he gently place a kiss on her knuckles. "i'm sorry that out of all people.. you've fallen for me." she apologized. the tears that was stopped a few minutes ago continue to fall again.

jungkook shush her, caressing her hand as he speaks, "no. you did nothing wrong." yerim looks at him. "then what about the dream i got ?" she asks.

"dream ?" jungkook repeats, seem confused as well.

"what happened to me at Nick ? why i passed out for so long." she questioned. "you were tired, dehydrated and shocked." yerim couldn't accept the last answers. why would she be shocked ? "yerim, i touched you. look." he shows her their intertwined hands.

there was a little sparkle shining from the touch. she smiles weakly, amazed but also tired. "what was that ?" jungkook smiles back, again pecking her knuckles. "you wasn't used to my touch yet. this will be gone once you feel comfortable with me. see, the sparkles slowly fading." he said with a little chuckles.

yerim smiles as she heard him chuckling. that was nice to hear. it was so nice to have him by her side. his soothing voice, his assuring touches, securing every inch of her as he pulls her close to him. only if he knows how much yerim wants to keep him close, staying in that posit—

"did you just fucked up my mind again ?" she looked at him, ready to hit him the second he nods his head. he smirks, pulling her to his chest and force her head to lay on his warm embrace. "you're cute." he said with a hint of happiness and joy. yerim shrugs, feeling comfort in a slightest bit.

there was a moment of silence. no words needed for both of them. jungkook is happy he got his girlfriend back and yerim is still trying to fix her confused mind. alright, she had lived for decades ago and loved jungkook endlessly. her father didn't like it and simply threw her to other abandoned planet. that is ridiculous, surely. nothing seems logical. but in some reason, she wants to believe it. she wants to believe that what she saw is true, and jungkook is telling truth about their love life.

something isn't correct. something seems off. yerim didn't have the full information yet.

"jungkook." the mentioned hums in response. not bother to look at her face as he keeps on brushing her hair. "about the shadow i keep seeing.. is that thing related to what happened to us ?" this time, jungkook take a moment to look at his girl. she looks back, face clueless and curious. the man took a while to respond.

"i don't know what are you talking about." he said. "of course i've been following you once in a while, but haven't transformed to any shadows." he explains, looking up the ceiling to rethink about his answers. "and yeah i've been sending you flowers too, but shadow ? no."

"flowers ?" she repeats, a small shy smile make uts way on her lips. "the honeysuckles." jungkook stated, smiling as yerim tries to hide her shyness. "but why didn't you tell me your name ?" she queries. pushing him away, she sits with her legs cross. jungkook sits straight too. "i can't. even the thought of me stalking you already caused you sleepless. imagine you know i sent those flowers. you'll be creeping to death." he laughs.

yerim hits him, "of course i'll creep out ! i don't know you yet you know every single things about me." she snaps, looking away to hide her reddening cheeks. jungkook laughs again, a soft melodic laughter. "why privet ? why prohibition ?"

"to describe our love life."

he is right. their love was forbidden. honeysuckle means devoted love. and of course, jungkook is loyal. he had waited for her for decades and yet, he loves her still. like they just fall in live yesterday. like the feeling is still new.

"does it hurt ?" she whispers, searching for his eyes. instead of showing the sadness yerim had thought, jungkook flashes her his arrogant smile. "it does." he tells, "but i must hold the pain in order to get you back. i can't give up on you and i will never." yerim smiles, the captivating smile that managed to catch jungkook's heart. "seems like you trynna act tough right there."

"amaranth." still sent shivers up to her spine. "about the shadow you were talking, can you describe it ? more specific." he demands. yerim took a while before telling jungkook about the weird things she had been through these pass few days. she tell him about the dreams, about the vision, from when she woke up to jungkook tied up in the same room. jungkook didn't show any expression as she told him all these. his eyes starring sharp at the emptiness of the floor as his mind goes deep in thinking.

"i was afraid. i was lonely. and what terrifies me is that no one else can see it." she added. "i don't know what that is." he said. "but i know it could harm you." yerim hums softly. she got goosebumps and her body shivers again with her palms producing sweats. "i thought my hands sweating because of you, but it isn't. it's because of the shadow." yerim adds again.

"you might need to inform me the next time it happen, as soon as possible."