I Just Want To Be Someone. Klance AU

Chapter 14

I'm only updating because I'm super lonely in tutor right now. Everyone is sat so far away from me and I'm on my own. I bet I look like a right loner :))))

"So we have reasons to be concerned about Lance's performance in school," I felt extremely awkward hearing them talk about me as if I wasn't in the room so I just kept my gaze fixed on my lap. I could feel my mum's stare burning into the side of my head but I tried my best to ignore it. If I closed my eyes, I could almost imagine I was somewhere else. Maybe at home on my Xbox or with Keith. Keith. It was weird how just thinking about him could calm me down. "I've had a conversation with him and we both think that it is possible he could be suffering with ADHD." My teacher's voice was so distant as I was essentially lost inside my own head.

"He said," I could hear the nerves in my mum's voice. She didn't deserve to be nervous. I deserved to be nervous. I inhaled deeply, trying to throw myself back into my calming imagination. I probably looked like an idiot, sitting there with my eyes closed as my parents had a serious conversation about my mental health. "Will this diagnosis hinder him? Will he be treated differently to the other kids?"

"He may get some extra help but that's all. We're hoping a diagnosis might lead to Lance learning some methods to keep concentrated in class."

"What's going to happen then?"

"Well, the school will find a psychologist for you to see and Lance will be assessed. If they think he suffers with ADHD, he might be referred to a psychiatrist for medication or a therapist."

"Okay," My dad spoke up for the first time. I glanced in his direction, escaping my daydream for a second to see his concerned expression. I half expected anger or irritation but he was just... worried. "And this... ADHD... do you know what may have caused it?"

"Short answer: no. There can be multiple causes such as genes or other elements of biology. It may also be-" And I zoned out again. I distantly felt my mum wrap an arm around me but I remained stiff, keeping my guard up. I only knew to stand up and leave when the arm vanished. My dad sighed and I got up onto my feet, ready to follow my parents out. My teacher was watching me with a curious expression on her face so I glanced down at my shoes. "It will be okay, Lance."

"Yeah," I mumbled. "It will be." Maybe part of me could finally believe her.

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Sharpshooter01: Do you think it's possible to drown in your own tears

Sharpshooter01: Or maybe cry so much you become dehydrated

Sharpshooter01: Because I'm crying so much

RedLion2000: Lance, what's wrong?

RedLion2000: Where are you?

Sharpshooter01: At home in bed

RedLion2000: So you're safe?

Sharpshooter01: Yes Red

RedLion2000: What happened then? What are you thinking about?

Sharpshooter01: I'm going to see a psychologist sometime to get properly diagnosed and my parents didn't call me a failure at all today :)

RedLion2000: Omg that's great!

Sharpshooter01: I know! I'm kind of happy for once

RedLion2000: I got really scared when you said you were crying

Sharpshooter01: I'm sorry

Sharpshooter01: Hey, what's your Snapchat?

RedLion2000: Why?

Sharpshooter01: I want to show you something I drew

RedLion2000: It's KeithKo12

Sharpshooter01: Noice

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I opened up my Snapchat app and typed in Keith's username. I added him as a friend and, a couple of minutes later, Keith added me back. I took a quick photo of the drawing I had done a few nights back and sent it to him. I don't know why but the time between it being sent and opened was extremely nerve-wracking. I knew I wasn't an artist in the slightest so the drawing wasn't of the best quality but what if he hated it? What if he thought I was a creep for drawing him? Before I could send myself into a full-blown panic attack, my phone made a noise. He had responded.

With trembling fingers, I opened up the app again. He had replied with a simple 'cute' but it still made my cheeks heat up. I couldn't help but notice he had screenshot the message- either because he loved it or because he hated it and wanted to use it against me in the future.

In return, I took a selfie whilst holding up the peace sign, captioning it, 'thank you'. I had to admit, it took a couple of pictures before I took one I thought looked good enough. I secretly hoped for a selfie from Keith but he just opened the picture and didn't respond on Snapchat again.

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RedLion2000: As cute as you are, I prefer to talk on here

Sharpshooter01: Disappointed that you didn't send me a selfie ngl

RedLion2000: I look like shit

Sharpshooter01: HAHAHAHAHA you're joking right

RedLion2000: No?

RedLion2000: And I'm in my pyjamas

Sharpshooter01: Are they My Little Pony or something

RedLion2000: No... they're just bottoms. I don't wear a shirt in bed

Sharpshooter01: Even better

RedLion2000: No

Sharpshooter01: Come ooooon

RedLion2000: No

Sharpshooter01: Pleaaaase

RedLion2000: No

Sharpshooter01: Fine *pouts*

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My phone beeped again from where it was sat beside me and I grinned once I saw it was a Snapchat from Keith. I opened it up and immediately felt the heat rise to my face, specifically my cheeks. Keith was shirtless, as he had warned, and I definitely did not expect his chest to be so toned. It looked like he worked out a lot. I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply, trying my hardest not to imagine what it would feel like if I ran my hands up his abs.

It was hard to pull my mind out of the gutter so I forgot to respond until Keith messaged me again.

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RedLion2000: Distracted ;)

Sharpshooter01: Huh?

RedLion2000: You disappeared after I sent you my selfie. Why?

Sharpshooter01: My sister needed me

RedLion2000: I believe you

Sharpshooter01: Why would I lie?

RedLion2000: Hmm

Sharpshooter01: What

RedLion2000: Hmm

Sharpshooter01: WHAT

Sharpshooter01: Wait a second

Sharpshooter01: I JUST REALISED WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE BUT I SWEAR I JUST HAD TO HELP MY SISTER DO SOMETHING

RedLion2000: Sure, Sharpshooter

RedLion2000: I totally believe you