Destiny & Distance

18°

The last time Chris and I saw each other we were about to kiss, when I stopped him he asked me why was I acting like that if we already had sex and I screwed up. I told him that I might be seeing him as something more than a friend and he brushed me off... Well, not exactly like that since he's such a gentleman, but he did told me he needed time to himself, he apologized for trying to kiss me and making me feel torn over those actions he had. It was one of the most awkward moments in my life and I knew that when we see each other again, the tension in the air will be so thick. I told my sister about it, I told her everything and she was like "convince him to be with you" but I'm just not that type of woman—Also, I told Carly everything, even the fact that we had sex, the way we've been behaving with each other and she just said that her bother was torn and confused. "Give him time" were her words

—If you don't go with me, then my mom and dad will suspect something's going on, she invited you...

—I know Carly, I know

Carly and I have became so close to each other lately, I did have a good relationship with Shanna and Scott, but between Carly and I there was more... Trust? I guess

—I can't believe I'll have to go back to Seattle in January, I was getting used to this again. And I'll miss you quite a lot, too.

—Stop blackmailing me, I know you all don't live here and are just visiting your parents, it's fine, I'll go with you -I roll my eyes and she applauds-

—Then hurry up lady!

I went looking for a coat and a beanie, grabbed my apartment keys

—But hold on, Carly, I need this -I went back to my kitchen and took a Tequila shot, making Carly laugh out loud-

—Sometimes you're so dramatic! I can't believe you -she wipes away one tear-

—I really needed that before seeing Captain America himself

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I've always hated airports, going incognito was such a mission. I see my dad close to one exit and sigh, finally.

—How's everything pops? -I hug him-

—Same as usual son, what about you? -we start to walk to the car-

—I'm officially a single man. -I shrug-

I've always had a close relationship with my parents and I've always told them everything. Even now that I'm an adult I still do, days before leaving I told my parents about the problems between Jenny and I... Or more like MY problem. They suggested that I should fly to see her and talk things personally so I did, I must admit it wasn't easy and it kinda hurt too, the weirdest part was having my house empty again, all to myself.

After days of talking Jenny finally agreed that breaking up was the healthiest thing to do, she said she was going to move back to her old house, and she did... Even faster than I thought. I also have to admit that seeing her so heartbroken and crying broke my heart too, her mom was there, but instead of trying to calm things down or support her daughter, all she did was looking at me with disgust and saying mean things, talking about karma and shit.

If someone told me that Jenny's mom was going to behave that way I wouldn't believe it, but I guess life's full of surprises

—Your mom's been waiting for you -my dad interrupts my thoughts as we enter the car- she's going to make dinner for the family

—I can tell -I laugh- bet she invited Gabriela too

—Yeah, she did, you know how your mom is. Besides, that girl is really blended with the family now, I really appreciate her, son

—Yeah, so do I.

What happened between Gabriela and I... It was just awkward, weird. I mean, she's a pretty good woman, she's good looking, smart, all... But I don't think I'm ready to hop in another relationship, besides she's in Boston and I'm currently living in L.A with a busy schedule, it wouldn't work out

After a while, we arrived home, told my mom and dad everything that happened between Jenny and I. Shanna and Scott heard some parts too. Eventually, mom left to make dinner

—Where's Carly? Haven't seen her -I asked-

—She's at Gabriela's -Scott answered me and I nodded- brother, I know you're heads over... heels for her. We all now

—But it's something we never wanted to talk about since you shut people off sometimes -Shanna finished Scott's sentence-

—I'm not head over heels for her neither do I shut people off -I defend myself, my dad stands up and leaves, leaving us 3 alone-

—See? There's no point -Shanna shrugs-

Do I really shut people off my life?

—Shanna, it wouldn't work out -I finally confess and she smiles, a "I knew it" smile-

—It'll work out if you want to

—It ain't that simple, she lives here and I'm in L.A, you know how busy my schedule is sometimes, she has other priorities than being with me and I respect that, neither do I want to distract her from that -I start talking- and it's not like I'm in love with her, I do feel attraction but I just... broke up with Jenny and I don't wanna be involved in another relationship just yet, it's exhausting

—It's exhausting when you're with the wrong person, man -Scott speaks up-

I guess he's right