Hot and Cold

Twenty-eight

"Why are you here?"

Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin ng lumapit sya sa akin. He didn't say a word, umupo lang sya sa harapan ko at tinitigan ako.

"Aawayin mo na naman ako?! You always wants to see me crying!"

Kinuha ko ang bola na nakalagay sa tabi ko at tumayo. Lumipat ako ng upuan, medyo malayo sa kinauupuan nya. I frowned when I saw him stood up and followed me. This time, umupo na sya malapit sa akin.

"Go away!" I pushed him. "I don't want to be your friend anymore!"

Still, he didn't talk. Nakatingin lang sya sa akin. I wiped away the tears on my face bago sya tinignan. Nagtitigan kami for a moment bago sya unti-unting ngumiti. Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin pero nginitian nya lang ako.

"I'm sorry Yumi"

Napatitig ako sa mga berde nyang mata. I always find his eyes adorable. May kinuha sya sa bulsa nya atsaka binigay sa akin.

"What's that?"

"A promise gift"

He handed me a small sunflower ring na kinuha nya sa pocket nya kanina. Siya na mismo ang nagsuot sa mga daliri ko ng singsing na binigay nya sa akin.

"I won't make you cry again, promise."

I can still remember his smile while making his promise when we were 7 years old. He promised not to make me cry again, but he failed to keep it. And now my heart can't almost handle the pain anymore and I want to cry my heart out infront of him.

"Ayumi--"

He tried to reach for my hand pero umatras ako. Nakita ko ang pagguhit ng sakit sa mga mata nya pero di ko ito pinansin. I distant myself from him at agad na pumunta sa may bintana.

He lead me to his office, the SC office. The room is empty and cold when we entered. A perfect place to talk about the past. hmm.

"Baby..."

Nanatili ang tingin ko sa labas ng bintana. Sumisikip ang dibdib ko pero pinipilit ko pa ring itago ang sakit na nadarama ko. I can feel a lump on my throat na para bang may bumabara dito. I can feel the tears waiting to fall.