What Is Love? - MingKit

Intro.

Author's Note: I really hope you guys like this book, this is by far one of my favorites that I've written. Updates: every day (unless is say otherwise in Author's Note)

( this is in a journal type format like NWTFBFA, but it's also completely different from that )

- KIT'S POV. - Present Time - March 5th, 2016 -

One thing I've learned since starting college, LOVE IS A REAL THING. I never knew what love was, I thought it was only something you'd see in a BL Drama, or any drama honestly. In my family, if you could even call it that, we don't really, how do I put this? We don't love, we never say ' I love you ', we (my siblings and I) all basically were taught that love is something you don't talk about, you don't show. So naturally being the youngest and the slowest (mentally) they never told me or tried to explain what love was, so I went my whole life only knowing kindness and hate, but looking back on that I see how fucked up that is, I don't speak to my family currently but I'm trying to reach out to them and just ask them why we never said I love you or showed anything besides hate towards each other. I'm going to tell you guys the story of my life basically, so sit tight, get some food, this is gonna take awhile,

back in about 2002 I was 5 or 6 at the time when I heard two TV characters saying
'i love you' i was always slow mentally so I couldn't understand everything but what I did understand is that I've never heard that word before, 'Love' it was like a foreign language to me I had no idea what that word meant. So 5 year old me got up and went to my eldest brother and I asked him
He gasped, slapped me, and then gave me a near 3-hour lecture on why we NEVER say that word, and from then on I never questioned it. EVER.
Until a few months ago, when I met Ming, he was a new 2nd-year student along with Wayo the 1st year, he was really cute, but also very annoying. And as I only grew up knowing hate and a small bit of kindness I was mainly rude to him, always left if he showed up near me, but something about him drew me in, I wanted to be around him more, at the time I wasn't sure what love felt like so I was just confused the entire time I felt like that towards him. I still feel that way towards him I've just never said anything to him about it...not yet atleast..
I still really don't know what love is, but I'm hoping whatever it is that I feel towards Ming is love, or that he could at least explain or show me what love is...