The Hidden Truth

22.

Luke knight.

I exhaled taking a large gulp of my drink my thoughts wandered off to her.

She still looks the same, but much better she reeks of confidence or is she trying to look that way?, she wasn't the girl I molested or tortured.

She is far different from that girl. Four years, four fucking years I searched for her and she's nowhere to be found.

Now that she's here God help me if I will ever let her out my sight.

I leaned back into the sofa closing my eyes for a while.

How she escaped me is still misery to me, I recall how devastated her mother was when she heard her daughter is missing.

She kept blaming herself for neglecting her and I can't help but become more curious.

"Luke" she quietly call my name as she laid there looking pale and sucking In a sharp breath full of pain.

That is what you get for murdering my brother. Devious woman.

Her sight alone is making me furious.

"Laney" I whipped my head up the name of that girl alone is making me mad, mad for her escaping under my roof, in my house. I should have killed her when I had the chance.

"Laney" again she called that bitch name "Laney has been neglected almost all her life" she paused, struggling to sit up right.

I reluctantly helped her sit up right as I place a pillow at the headboard of the hospital bed.

She mumbled a small thank you while I sat down again impatiently waiting for her to finish so I can get the hell out.

"I wasn't a good mother at all, you see Laney wasn't made out of love" that got my attention.

"Laney was a product of rape" she inhaled sharply shuddering at the process.

"When I finally gave birth to her I neglected her why? It's simple she looks exactly like the him" I didn't miss the way she emphasized on the 'him'.

"So I let her do things by herself since she was little, I got busy with work just so I can escape her, she was left to do things at a tender age all by herself. Up to her teenage years".

"I wasn't present when she graduated highschool or when she got her first job or when she was going through things I wasn't there, hell she can't come close to me at all".

"So I met someone" she smiled softly. I clenched my jaw "He made me see men ain't all the same you know, he was different and far younger than me, at first I didn't want anything to do with him, at all but he kept trying and trying and eventually he made his way into my heart unknowingly I let my guard down".

"But then he showed up how he got out of prison was still a misery, he stalked me, I got scared not for me, but my daughter's safety even though I am a terrible mother I can't live knowing she's in danger".

" I couldn't tell him that I have someone chasing me up and down threatening to kill him if he ever come close to me, instead I kept seeing him, his love was all I need all I ever wanted".

" I was selfish" damn right you are.

"The faithful day he left me, he received a call from his mother, he promised to come back you know? He told me he will come back before I know it and then we will continue from where we stop." she smiled softly a lone tear escaped from her eye.

"He left not knowing that, that would be the last time I will hear or see him, I waited for him to come back for days up to 2 straight weeks still he didn't show and his call wasn't connecting I left tons of messages" she wiped a tear and sniffled.

"I was physically, mentally, spiritually exhausted without hearing from him, then I saw him laying down with cuts and bruises all over his face up till date, I can't help but blame myself for his death, I can never forgive myself".

"So I left, I ran away going ten times cold towards Laney, that is when you came into the picture, I figured giving her to you will secure her, but I guess I am wrong" she let out a sad smile.

"I never get to meet his family he spoke highly of his brother ". She stare at me before averting her gaze.

"When you see her I want you to give her this journal" she hands a journal ,I unbutton my shirt feeling guilty all of sudden that poor girl is innocent she had no idea and I stupidly let my revenge get in the way to see how..

"And tell her how deeply sorry I am for neglecting her for not being there for her when she needs me the most. Most of all I am sorry for being the reason...."

I opened my eyes letting out a breath, I punished someone as innocent as her for a crime she didn't commit, she is the victim here not her mother not me.  But her.

I can't help but feel guilty for all that I have done to her.

I will do everything possible to get her back even if it takes forever.