No strings attached ..

chapter 59

Karin

" you're smarter than that Dave " I said driving him from the ER in Jersey .

" I ain't see that shit coming it's like he knew I was coming or some shit " save said holding on to his hand right being that he was in pain .

" just relax " I said to him .

I pressed on the gas pedal , I was tired as I don't know what we've been in Jersey for almost 1 and a half days . Dave was layed back falling asleep being of the medicine he was taking for pain relieve . Today was an eye opener for friendships , can't believe aaliyah gonna dip on us like that .

This was just so much stress ,  I don't understand how the future is gonna hold for us but maybe it was right for Aaliyah and Chris to live from New York . It's like things have been worst every since we moved to New York I mean it's like a repeating sequence with the drama and karma .

We wasn't suppose to got to Atlanta and turn up like that , god is telling us that we should've layed low and stunted on all of them instead of making a scene like that . I made it to the last exit before our home , Dave wasn't built to go see his sister right now and I know she don't wanna see him like that so tomorrow afternoon he should be feeling good .

Approximately 20 minutes we made it home and I helped him out the car into the house , I made sure he changed his clothes and layed down comfortably . This is my future husband and I need to learn how to help him when he's in critical condition . I may be too young to be but trust me I know all the game & it's time for me to put my big girl panties on and grow tf up .

Me and my girls haven't sat down and chilled in forever , Shit changed frfr and I want our bond back because I feel so alone right now . Jasmine and I haven't spoken since she brought Dave back to the hospital to see Marissa , Me and her been through a lot and I feel her and Ella are all I got rn being that Aaliyah wants to branch away from us and leave us in the dirt .

I walked into my bathroom and stripped all the clothes on , A nice hot bath was all I needed right now . The water got to a nice level so I dropped my lavender scented bath bomb and waited for it to dissolve .

My life has been like a rollercoaster these past years and I've been getting through these different obstacles by the strength of god .

I stepped into the tub and left the warm / hot water send a shiver to my body , I honestly needed to relax .

Instagram has been the last thing on my mind these past few months , Shit my phone has been the last thing on my mind . I seem Jasmine post that Ella was over her house and I decided to FaceTime them .

The call rang about 5 times , Jasmine must've declined after that or just ignored my call . Everyone is slowly giving up on me and I don't know why , Like is there something I did ? Is this karma coming back at me for not being the best friend to Jasmine whole she was getting abused ? I'm just full of questions with no answers .

I layed my head back and cried , I haven't spoken to my mom or dad after she came and to New York to get Alaiya . Crazy thing is Alaiya didn't even stay a full 3 days with me , She obvious doesn't trust me but it's all ok .

These tears I've been holding back for months .. shit years and I finally let them all go . I always put others before me but this time I should think about myself .. Me .. Karin and no one else but this beautiful black women .

I'll get back into my modeling and do what makes me happy and stress free . Speaking of that Tomorrow I'll be looking through my emails to see what the money looking like . 

Dave

I felt legit pussy for letting that nigga put a whole through my hand , It was all set up and I'll be hitting all my niggas up to see which one of them moving funny .

Karin thought I was sleep but I can hear her talking to herself in the bathroom , I think it's time for me to do something for her being that she's been here through thick and thin with me and my family and I haven't been able to show her how much I appreciate it deeply and care for her .

I personally think it's time I make things official and show her that's this love between us ain't going nowhere , She might be young to get married but she gon be 20 next year who says we can't get married fuck that .

She's about to be my wife and tommorow I will be getting her the ring she deserves and wants . I'll set up everything where her parent's out here and my mom here , We'll do it here as a surprise dinner and just a day for her to get all cute and shit .

Ima try to set it up by the next 2 days , Well I'll have my assistant fix all this shit up being she knows me and Karin best and what we like .

Karin was walking back in the room with her robe on , I can tell she was crying by the sniffles every five seconds . I watched her walk over to the dresser and pulled out some shorts and one of my white tees . Her skin was so flawless she ain't even need no fenty shine whatever that shit Rihanna just dropped that she's ordering .

She completes me , I'm embarrassed to say but she's the reason I am who I am today and I applaud her for that . In order for a relationship to succeed or last you have to accept each others differences or flaws and never judge one another past . When I met Karin it was never about her body , It was always the personality and how she acts herself . 

" babe you not sleep " she said jumping into the bed catching me off guard while I was in deep thought .

" I've been thinking about you beautiful " I said & she leaned down and kissed me on my cheek like I was some little ass girl .

" I'm so stressed , I need you to hold me " she said getting under the covers and scooting close to me , I wrapped my arms that wasn't injured under her and kissed her forehead as I squeezed her tight with that one arm .

" it's alright we gon get through it " I said right before I George vibration of my phone . 

" this my mom " I said answering the phone . 

" baby where have you been ? " she said sounding worried .

" handling business , I'm alright mom " I said calmly so she wouldn't panic

" well your sister will be released from the hospital , depending on how well she gets in the pass weeks " she said sounding excited . My heart just went from 0 to 100 , I was so happy that my sister was going to be coming home soon and is recovering so fast . I'm telling you got works miracles and trust and believe if you're going through anything tough just sit down and talk to god , He may not come in clutch on time but he definitely makes sure he come through when the time is right . 

" that's wonderful ma " I said as a tear fell from my face , I don't know how I can repay you god but I'm willing to do anything .

" I just wanted to call and let you know , I know it's getting late .. Me and your baby sister is heading home right now " she said .

" alright ma , I'll speak to you tm " I said hanging up .

Karin was knocked out on my arm , My shit was so numb but I didn't wanna move or wake her up from her  peaceful sleep so I just stuck through the pain like a boss .