No strings attached ..

chapter 38

Jasmine

I woke up in the hospital with Jason laying on the bed also hugged up on me , The pain in my stomach was so intense .. I lifted up my shirt and seen a long cut that looked like a C section cut . I seen so many wires hooked up to me I was confused .

" Jason , wake up " I said and pointed to my stomach & he had a shocked look on his face .

" They took you into surgery as soon as you got here last night " he said and I didn't remember anything . A nurse walked in as we were talking .

" Hi Jasmine , I'm Dr. Olivia & I came to check on how much you recovered from last night and I've seen that you awaken so that's good " she said

" Where's my baby ? " I asked

" Uh .. they didn't tell you ? " she said and I felt my stomach bawl up , I ripped out all the iv in my arm and sat up on my bed .

" No they didn't tell me anything at all , Jason did they tell you anything ? " I said and looking over at him and he nodded

" I'm sorry , you baby wasn't breathing when she came out but she's in medical attention . I don't know for sure if she's going to make it Jasmine being that it seemed like you were brutally hurt and however it happened the baby couldn't handle the pain as much as you did .. But there's still a possibility of her being able to survive just keep her in your prayers " as she said that my heart fell onto the floor .

I dropped to my knees and started praying as the doctor walked out , But praying wasn't gonna handle the pain that I felt .. I fell down to the ground and Jason came and held me , I was so hurt that I couldn't even stop crying . Having another Miscarrage within a year is very painful & I was happy about having this baby I guess God wasn't ready for me to have her .

Karin & everyone except Aaliyah and Chris walked in seeing me on the floor crying , Immediately Karin and Ella ran over to me hugging me while Jason got up and dapped Dave & Artist . Karin and Ella was crying with me and that honestly made it worst I felt so hurt that I didn't even wanna be on this earth anymore , God needed to take me instead of my baby girl . If meen finds out he's going to be so upset and blame everything on me when it wasn't my fault . Karin and Ella helped me up on the bed .

" Jasmine tell us everything that happened " Karin said wiping her tears and handing Ella tissue

" I was walking down the hall to your house and as soon I started to unlock the door I felt a kick to my back and feel face down to ground .. Turned out it was my father and he started kicking me and my stomach and He told me that ... My mom is dead and that he had something to do with it , The past years he's been very abusive to me and my mom .. Well the nurse just came in and said my baby is seeking medical attention and there's nothing I can do but pray she survives " I said and everyone walked over and hugged me and I cried out .

It was about 12am .. Karin and ella was staying the night with me while everyone and Jason went out to get some food for us . I was on my phone and dialed my mom's number not knowing what response I was going to get but it was worth a try , The phone rang and my hands were shaking tremendously .

" Hello ? " I heard a voice say

" Mamá ? This is Jasmine " I said

" Jasmine baby ! " She said and I could hear her crying and I felt stress relief .

" where are you honey ? I've been trying to contact you for years " she said and I started crying

" Mom dad visited me last night and it wasn't just talking " I said

" Wtf did he do to you Jasmine ? " I heard my mom say stuttering

" Mom I was pregnant & he killed my baby .. " I said and all I could hear was my mom crying on the phone .

" Jas I'm sorry about leaving you , Your dad was forcing me to and I finally got away from him .. I live with your Tía now in miami and your older cousin Jacob , Your welcomed to come down here baby .. " she said and I really needed to get away from all of this stress . Moving to new York wasn't any better .

" I'll call you later mom , I love you " I said before hanging up

" I love you to baby "

Speaking to my mom after years really made me feel better & knowing that she isn't dead is even more of a blessing , My mom was Dominican & Trinidadian .. She spoke Spanish tho , I truly love my mom and when she left with my dad and left me alone I didn't know what to do .. I felt lonely & depressed .

Jason was back and Karin & Ella decided they were gonna come back first thing in the morning to check on me .

" Okay y'all , Bye thanks for coming " I said as they walked out the door

" How you feeling ? " Jason said handing me my food

" I can't even eat right now " I said handing the food back to him and he wrapped it all up and put it in the bag .

The nurse walked in and she had a look on her face that wasn't normal ..

" Jasmine ? I'm truly sorry but your baby didn't make it .. She just stopped breathing " she said and I couldn't breathe , My heart felt like it dropped onto the floor . The worst pain ever us to lose a child you was looking forward to having & 2 miscarrages in one year because of the same thing .

" I'll give you some time & you can come see her or we'll bring her to you " she said .

Jason walked over to the bed and hugged me tight , Something about his touch comforted me & I felt so safe in his arms .

" can I tell you something ? " He said and looked up at me

" My mom had a miscarrage with my twin brothers .. Jonah and Jay , She was hurt for a few days but me and my dad always told her things happen for a reason . Maybe God felt you wasn't ready for a baby & now she's at rest so don't cry and stress yourself out , Your baby girl gonna look over you a guide you to new beginnings . " he said and I honestly felt relieved that my baby is going to be resting in peace with her other brother or sister .

I layed back and Jason cover me in the covers and layed next to me with his head on my chest , He squeezed me tight and I didn't even feel myself saying this at all .. Didn't know it was coming out .

" I love you " I said and he looked up at me with a shocked face .

" I love you too " he said and we both layed back down . You don't have to know someone for years to realize the love you have for them , Jason has been here for me . He's comforting and I know the love I have for him is real because I never felt this way towards anyone before . . .

* Jasmine's mom in media *