No strings attached ..

chapter 51

Dave

Tonight was actually not that bad , Karin's mom always loved me but her dad was a tough cookie . Once he found out I was a rapper he immediately thought I was no good for his daughter until I broke it down with him , Karin was the one I wanted to be with and being a New York rapper you usually wanna just fuck bitches and make money well not me . I still got the hood in me but I got a soft side and that's where Karin is she brings the soft nigga out of me . When I'm around her it's like I'm always laughing and smiling , being thats she's 19 turning 20 if feel she's too young for marriage but I'm ready . She's the one I want to be with and eventually have kids with and I'll do anything for her nothing in this world could ever break us up .

The first time I saw Karin I knew Karin was the one , From the way she dressed all the way down to when I approached her and she wasn't stuck up like other bitches even tho I wasn't tryna rush shit with her and be on some I just wanna fuck shit . Our first date was a little weird but after we started to hang out we got closer and closer , I'm glad I met her truly even tho it was a long distance relationship after she left I was still always tryna keep up with her but it was hard being that I was focusing on music .

" babe I just wanna chill tonight " I said taking my shoes off .

" nigga you acting like I be the one feening for sex " she said and we both laughed 

" I can't help it that you be looming fine with ya thick ass " I said putting my sweats and white tee on .

" well this gonna be my first night wearing pajama pants in bed with ya freaky ass she said and we both got into the bed and layed down .

" I love you " she said laying her head on my chest

" I love you too girl " I said kissing her forehead .

" I think I'm ready to have kids " she said and that took me by surprise being that a few weeks ago she was crying about not being ready

" what made you change your mind " I asked and she lifted her head up

" I really wanna be with you and being that my parents love you , I feel we need to expand our love with a little us running around " she said

" we'll wait until God blesses us & you know exactly what I'm tryna said " I said and winked

She layed her head down and I squeezed her tight as I rubbed her back , Being that we're leaving ATL tomorrow I wanted to make sure she chill with her parents and stuff cause I know she's used to being with her mom everyday . Me and Karin moving in together is Aight but I feel we might need something a little bigger with more space and she could pick out how she wants to decorate it this time , She always complains about how plane my house is and how it needs more color . When she first moved in she decorated a little but it wasn't how she wanted to fully .

Karin

Today I had to say goodbye to Atlanta once again , this time I was taking my baby Alaiya with me to new York while my mom goes on tour with my dad and this was going to be interesting being that I can see how Dave actually is with kids and my sister can get to know who her brother in-law is even tho she's only 1 and doesn't understand she should get used to him being around . I got up a little before Dave to get my thoughts together , I must admit after I found out I wasn't pregnant it hit me . I don't know how Dave feels cause he doesn't express his feelings that much and it was kind of annoying but I know he loves me and he knows I love him .

I picture us having a baby girl , With nice curly hair and big lips like her mama . Hopefully he or she doesn't have Dave's eyebrows his shits be woofing up like crazy , other than looks I know he or she will have both of their parents in their life and no matter what I'll always be there for my child . My dad was in and out of my life but he still made sure I was good at time and I appreciate him for coming back around while my sister is young so she could grow up with both parents and be better than me . My baby sister is like my own , She's my heart and I'll do anything for her .. growing up I didn't have a older sister to look up to and tell me things about the real world so that's why I haven't been the best person my pass few years but I'm growing and Dave has been here to help me make progress and pursue my dreams .

" Alright ma " I said as I finished strapping Alaiya up in her car seat .

"Bye baby , you got all her snacks ? And she drinks almond milk remember that and also she needs to be in bed around 8 so when she wakes up at 6 or 7 in the morning you can give her cereal with almond milk and a fruit . No junk food please " she said I was just thinking in my head , my sister is gonna have the best few months of her life living with me ain't no rules in my house .

" Later dad " I said hugging her and he kissed me on my forehead

Finally my mom was done giving orders about Alaiya like I was really gonna use them , We waited on Alexis and Jasmine to pull up so we could catch the flight and leave . Atlanta might be out of the picture for a while after why happened the other day and I really don't need any of that negative energy in my life especially in the head space that I'm in right now . I need to worry up me and mine for right now but I must admit the other day I needed to let all that energy out . From now on I'm staying on a positive route and no more negativity .