IMAGINES ft. BeaDdie [EDITING]

Finale

Maddie died 5 months ago.

She died and I don't know how the hell I did  survive; And why I survived.

Dalawa na dapat kami eh. Dalawa dapat kaming nakalibing dito. Dalawa dapat!

I still don't know how to live my life without my light. My world revolved on Maddie. Ngayong wala na sya, how can I live? She was my everything. She was my world.

When He took her away from me, I lost my life. I am just a living lifeless body.

I visit her everyday. Buong araw akong nakatambay lang sa libingan nya. Hindi ko kasi alam ano ba ang dapat kong gawin now that she's gone.

Ano 'to? Back to zero? Restart ulit? Ayoko! Ayokong magsimula na walang Maddie. I'd better be dead than to live this hellish life without her.

Di, di ko inakalang
Darating din sa akin
Nung ako'y nanalangin kay Bathala
Naubusan ng bakit

Everyday, I ask God why..

Why did He give Maddie to me kung babawiin nya lang din agad?

Why did He let Maddie die?

Why did He let me live?

Why am I still alive?

Bakit kung kailan okay na ang lahat, saka pa nangyari 'to?

Ang sakit lang! Ang sakit lang kasi kung kailan handa na kaming lumaban, saka sya nawala.

I never thought of this. I wasn't ready for this. Never in my wildest dreams na pumasok sa isip ko na mawawala si Maddie sa 'kin. We were so happy back then. So happy.

Bakit umalis nang walang sabi?
Bakit 'di siya lumaban kahit konti?
Bakit 'di maitama ang tadhana?

Maddie died because of me. This is all my fault!

I forced her to come with me sa isang get together with my HS friends. I was planning to introduce her to my friends kasi.

We were happily singing in the car. We were teasing each other. We were laughing our asses off.

But as what they say, every happiness, may kapalit.

"Alabyow!" I said as I squeeze her hand.

"Anong alabyow?" Maddie asked.

"I love you. Duh." I said, rolling my eyes.

"Sungit mo ah. Meron ka?" Maddie teased.

"Argh! Why so makulit, babe?" I asked frustratedly.

Walang kasingkulit si Maddie 'pag trip nya.

"Argh. Why so conyo, Bei?" she mocked.

See?

"Good thing, mahal kita, or else.." I said looking at her eyes.

"Or else, boring yung buhay mo kasi walang tall chinita girl na nangungulit sayo." Maddie continued.

I never thought na yun na ang huli naming harutan. I never thought na yun na pala ang last time na maririnig ko syang tumawa, makikita ko syang nakangiti, mahahawakan ko ang kamay nya. That was the last time.

At nakita kita sa tagpuan ni Bathala
May kinang sa mata na di maintindihan
Tumingin kung saan sinubukan kong lumisan
At tumigil ang mundo
Nung ako'y ituro mo
Siya ang panalangin ko