emails from me

email twenty-one.

to: lane
from: me
subject: i'm sober enough to know i shouldn't be talking to you, but i'm drunk enough not to care.

email twenty-one.

lane, baby.

how could you ever love me, when my own family doesn't even love me?

how could you forgive me for something, when my mom couldn't even look me in the eye, when i did the same to her?

i can't tell you what i did, because i can't stand the thought of you looking at me the same way that my dad does.

do you honestly wish to know what makes you worth so much more than me?

the reason my whole family hates me?
the reason my whole family should hate me?

i can't tell you what i did to you, yet, but i can tell you what i did to my family.

i can tell you how i ruined my family.

-me

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a/n

early update in celebration of getting two million reads on 'letters to you,' which is so cool!! :))

the description of the collab is up, if you wanna take a look at it :)

there's actually thirteen more parts, if i counted correctly, and the next part i actually wrote before i even began writing the emails, so it been planned since almost the beginning.

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