I walked out with my son in my arms. I found somewhere to sit and enjoyed the sight of nature and tried to calm myself down. I was trying hard to release the tears that were lingering in my eyes. I wasn't the soft one at all but this is another level of deep. Who would've knew just in that little time that we've known each other we would've got so close. BEST FRIENDS!!
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Morgan came out and rubbed my back. Didn't say a word which was a good thing right now. I took Riona advice and it turned out well. Morgan and I aren't the best but we're working. There's so much that's changed and if I lose here I'm going to have a long time in a state of sadness. I can't have that happening because my job requires me to be lit and happy all the time. I host. I have to keep the crowd hype and make it as fun as possible. Now this could potentially affect my money.
I feel like I should've asked her. What's going on? She did a good job of masking up her feelings because I wouldn't have guessed. Well, I do now notice how she would through subliminal messages in the way she talks and always tries to avoid some topics but I disregarded it at the time.
I looked at my son at thought of every way I could prevent this from happening to him.
D E M E T R I
I was supposed to be at work but I called out. I wasn't leaving until I knew Riona was good enough to come out. I knew something like this was going to happen. I knew it. I thought buying her the finer things would fix it but it didn't. Materialistic things don't get to bandages in that instance. I see now.
I had the Suicide Note that she wrote. No one saw it but me. I folded it into my pocket while the paramedics came.
I wanted to get away. Just be alone for some time. Kirahn kept walking over to me. I really felt like sitting in the car and rolling up but I couldn't if he came along. I brung him anyways. I sat in the car. In silence with Kirahn in my lap.
Where did I go wrong?
V A S S I A H ( Genesis babymomma A.K.A Mercedes mom)
It was my day off. I barely have any of those and I was in the hospital. When I first got there I had to excuse myself. I'm sure they notice I care very much how I approach people and since this was last minute and I rushed here I wasn't dressed appropriately. I excused myself. I had on an oversized hoodie but was mid-thigh and slip on house shoes. My hair was a in a legit messy bun. I tried to put a turban over it to disregard the look of me just getting up but, it didn't work so well though. I sat patiently eating coffee cookies and cream.
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I felt bad. Everyone was beating themselves up about this situation. Even me. This could have been my daughter. I'm always working and never have time for my family. I see myself unintentionally putting business and work before my family and even God. A small tear slid down my face. I silent prayed for forgiveness.
Earlier I heard Cedes talking with Shemar and Kirahn.
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"I think she's dead" she whispered but I heard. I didn't turn my head but just listened.
"No she's not. TT not even old yet. She can't die" Shemar got defensive. Kirahn looked at them converse.
"I heard the ambulance man talking to Uncle Reese"
"He lied to him then because only old people die..."
"Shemar" I called. I didn't have anything to say to him. Just needed a distraction.
Later the doctor came out and talked to them and gave us the opportunity to go two maximum at the time. Everyone had their moment and Metri and Ma Dukes was in there now. There weren't in there for too long though before we walked out furious. I was going to go after him but I would let him cool off first.
I was the last so it was only me in.
I couldn't control it. Just seeing her body there made me ball out in tears.
R I O N A I could hear but I couldn't move. Not even open my eye lids. I felt like I could see though. When my mom came in her calling me selfish and getting mad at me Metri finally spoke up. He was a momma's boy and never said anything to make him feel some type of way. Always kept her happy but this to me he clapped back.
"Are you serious? She laying her fighting between life and death. This may be the last time you see her alive and that's what you want to say? I hope you know that you're the one that caused all of this." I heard rumbling of paper. I put two and two together and figured it was the suicide note. I vented and pour my heart out. Everything I was afraid to say.
"Take it how you want." He said and walked out angrily. She stayed a while. I couldn't determine what was going on. It was so quiet. No sniffling, no nothing. She walked out suavely though. A few moments passed and someone else came in. It was good to know how they really felt about me and hear the funny stories of me and my FAM while I was a kid. I just wish I heard this earlier.
I heard sniffling. I couldn't decipher who it was.
"Lord forgive her" I heard Vassiah's voice. I laid and listened.
"Lord forgive your child for she know not what she does. I ask you Father God to bring her back to her family. Change her life towards you. Let her learn and see the positive outcomes that came from this experience. Forgive all us for contributing to this action. Me for putting my work and business before my very own family and you. Give me eyes to see and prevent these things from happening again. Eyes to see demons when they come to deviate the relationship of this family."
She went on and it was so heart felt. I was confused on hoe I could see positivity out of this though. I'm basically dead. At the end of the prayer though I said amen and hoped for the healing.
