Kind Of An Introvert

Chapter 18 |Champ|

R I O N A

I locked the door before I cornered myself in the bathroom crying. I snuck in the admins restroom so I wouldn't be seen. I haven't done this in years but, I was planning on skipping a couple of classes. I had to let this out before our first game today.

Really no one would understand the pain unless you're really in it. It's hard for me to comprehend myself so telling others would be a different complication. With my bipolar & anxiety disorders my emotions are all over the place. I was just fine this morning till I heard some females speaking on me.  I had my earphones in just because I didn't want to be bothered but, I wasn't listening to anything.

" That's the girl I was telling you about. Her and Jeremiah a thing"

" Girlllll, your lying." She laughed hysterically. Thought ran through my head of why she could possibly be laughing so hard.

"Red head?"

"Yurp"

I recently dyed my hair red and I was waiting to hear their critic about it but they didn't say anything . Why everyone was being mosey and me and Jr? I wasn't but, I don't see the problem if we were. This is why I refuse to be in relationships. I'm not mentally strong to face all of the stuff that comes with it.

I know what I can do to be successful and unbothered but, with my past it's hard to believe myself at times. I can never find it in me to even playfully roast people because it reminds me of my bullying days. That's what crazy. There can be people around you every day and you would never know. Especially, me. I smile at everyone and I'm really goofy.

I took several deep breaths and told myself to women up and stop being so emotional even though I couldn't really help it. I had a game today and I was going to make my people proud so I can at least feel worth it.

I wiped my tears, washed up, then walked out when  I didn't hear any more footsteps. I probably skipped about two class periods.

Right about now I was really hungry but, I couldn't go home because of the track meet after school I wouldn't even be able to shower. I don't trust school showers. The movies messed my head up. I would think someone gone come for me.

Quickly texting Reese I ask him to bring me some shoes to wear. These boots weren't cutting it in this furnace and I forgot to bring my slippers.

My ButterCup 🙄❤️:  I'm know where near the crib. But, I think I got a pair in the trunk.

It was funny how he was a grown man but he wore the same small size as me. I use to sneak his shoes to school back in my primary days. He was always a hype beast.

I was nervous but the girls being goofy was taking my head off of it. They became like family if anything. Coach basically forced us to like each other. Every weekend we would go out or sleep over. If you didn't know how to take a joke his wasn't your place cause that's what they spent most of there time doing. There was no time to be in your feelings.

After changing to our suits We walked around the school buying time. It was took hot to be wearing this but we had to.

"Ayye, excuse me" Sade (Shaw-Day) called out to this one boy that was walking past. She was the goofiest one and never took anything to heart.

"Can I sing to you? I need your honest opinion." She said so straight faced. I never knew she could sing.

"Ready?" He shook his head and she cleared her throat. Me and the other girls standing by looked at each other.