Kind Of An Introvert

Chapter 12 | That Gemini side |

" I bout tired of you doing that" JR said. I zoned out. 

" Oh, my fault" and sat in silence.

"Best friend what's wrong" any other person would have said I'm bipolar, laughed, and continued talking. I feel like he's one of the only people that notices the little things about me.

"Just have a lot on my mind"

"Talk to me"

" It's not that big. Just thinking"

"Sure?"

"Yea"

"Positive"

"Yes"

" Certain?"

"Omg , yesss" I laughed. I stared at the boots I took off sitting across the room. They were so beat. I could see the wide hole forming at the bottom from being scrapped and worn so much. I routed my thoughts in a different direction. I wasn't ready to be in my feelings.

I've been at Jeremiah's house like it's my own. It's either school, my house, or his. When I'm chilling at my house sometimes his parents invite me over. I like the feeling of being wanted.

I was suppose to be spending the night at his cause he wanted me to go to this one party he was hosting at. At first, I didn't want to go because the whole city and heir mom was planning on coming and that just wasn't my setting. I wanted to try something different so I guess that's the move tonight.

All on social media I see people promoting it. I was starting to get a sick feeling.

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It's was about that time and I had no clue what to wear. I didn't want to do too much but didn't want to look basic. I would wear he twelves Demetrius got me but he gig is my mom sent it off. There was some charity program and she just racked up things around the house and now I'm wearing my ugly boots everyday  or the slides. I was mad at first but I couldn't hold a grudge no matter how hard I tried.

I straightened my hair and left big curls I had in. I still didn't know what I was doing with my self. I burrowed Jr's phone looking on Snapchat and Instagram for outfit idea of people who were already going.
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Mally was a baddie so I also went and got a word of advice from her.

"Ooh girly I got something for you" she dug through her drawers and pulled out a olive green shirt. I tried to it on to see if it fit.

"Damn ma, lemme holla at you real quick." She said hyping me up. My stomach was getting flatter from these workout session. I was looking thick. Hair getting longer, ma getting thick, I'm eating good. Life is getting better huh?

"You can have it. It don't fit me anyways" I nodded and thanked her. I wanted to hesitate because I didn't want to be the one to share clothes without other females. That was one way to talk down on a female. I have enough of the talking down I'll avoid as much as possible. But, if she let me have it that something different ainna?

I put on the tore jeans I brought and slipped on the boots after I showered.

"Who that there? Hannnnnn" I twerked in the mirror. I didn't know I was capable of looking this good. I stared for so long. I was really surprised with myself. I feel like this happens to me too often. When I don't really try to dress up I look bomb. But, when I really try I get the opposite result.

I was feeling myself way to hard. I had Mally hyping me up I felt good and had Dej Loaf- Goals playing making me feel like the baddest. Mally wanted to paint my nails and since Dej loaf was on why not yellow.