If this isn't the weirdest situation yet. I gave Gia my phone letting her read the message then I explained the whole situation to her. I don't normally talk to her about things like this. I don't normally tell anyone things like this but I needed someone's input. Any one of my brothers would have a biased opinion being slightly overprotective and all. She asked to see a picture of him so I looked through my camera roll way back when and found a picture of us together.
" Awww" she cooed at us
" Yea, that's what we not about to do" I said and she laughed.
" Ya'll would've been so cute"
"If I liked him" dismissing that idea.
Even if I did though. I'm not the type of person that can have a boyfriend. I can crush, and imagine about how it would be but it would never happen in real life. I hate to show it but, my insecurities are so bad I won't allow or risk anymore damage. I've been bullied since the first day I started school up until. I don't vent to anyone because my trust issues are also something serious. To keep it real no one has ever told me I was pretty. I mean, on Instagram tbh's or what not but no one I know. They would say you look cute today or my outfit was but never me. I notice the little things and those are what are disturbing. There really isn't nothing anyone can do or say that will change the way I think of myself. It's been going on for so long. I've decided that I wouldn't be affiliated with boys on that level, I don't want kids because, I wouldn't be able to bare knowing or thinking that they think of themselves the way I do, therefore marriage is out of the picture. I've been raised to be independent so all of this isn't a big problem for me. Nothing new or nothing I can't handle.
" Cedes" she said frustrated with Mercedes crying and Shemar running around the house with barely any clothes on like things were sweet. She finished saying what she had to say to me before I decided to help her get them ready. I was supposed to go with them to the park but I decided against it. I took Cedes to my room getting her ready. I took a lollipop I had and gave it to her to silence her. She eventually did stop and I picked out her fit.
I played with her the whole time making her giggle the whole time. She fitted a blue strap dress , slip on sparkle loafers, and added the bangle gold bracelets. She whined and asked for the gold necklace I had on so I gave it up but hesitated. I even sassed her up with an old pochette shoulder bags that I no longer used.
She was looking so cuuuttee and adorable. Many said she resembled me but I only saw it in her hair in how lengthy it was and the quality.
I asked how she wanted me to do her hair and she said like Shemar. Well," wike samour" was the way she said it. I don't know how I was going to do that but I had an idea. Three fourths of it went into a big poofy ponytail and did a rat tail look with the back just how shemar has his. I tried.
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I snapped her up before she had a chance to make a mess with herself. I gave her up to Gia so they can do what they do while I was going to sit here bored. Probably be on YouTube until I find something productive to do with myself.
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I still couldn't see myself doing anything useful so I was walking around the neighborhood with Reese & Demetrius.
" She said she's pregnant". Wait, hold on, pause, cease, discontinue, may I interrupt? Another one? I love Cedes and Shemar but Lord not another one or two.
" Please no twins". My family was known for having twins but, so far in this generation there wasn't any meaning either Mitri, Reese, or me were going to have twins. Little did they know they wasn't going to be any children on this side. I smiled slightly at that thought for some reason.
"That would be crazy" running his hands through his hair. That must've been the reason he was having a fit the other day and taking it out on everything walking.
" I don't even want to get into this. Where ya'll tryna go?"
" I'm down for wherever" Me & Reese said. We walked back to the house to get the car and was out of there.
" Man, I can't believe you having a kid before me" Reese shook his head. I was surprised too.
" I guess it's just us then" I said dapping Reese up making Mitri mug us. It took awhile before what I said marinated. Reese did a reverse motion I guess undapping me up and Mitri being the dramatic one pulled over on the side of the road.
" What you mean it's just 'us" I laughed because that wasn't what I meant by that. At all.
" Thats definitely not what I meant by that" they wasn't buying my story. I pulled my shirt up showing my fat. " No kids no time soon, I promise. I just eat alot." And that was a BIG FACT. I wanted to play along with it though so I did.
" What if ..you know...kinda just.. flew in my dm's you know.."
Reese looked too calm making me cover my mouth trying not to laugh.
" Then we just gone have to shoot that bird. I doubt he'll make it safely into them dm's though" He shrugged pulling out the pistol hidden deep in the compartment. I didn't even know there was one in there and I nearly know everything.
" None until you about...50" Demitrius said after he scratched his chin like this was a hard decision to make.
" Ohh myy. Can ya'll let me live" My eyes bulged.Not like I wanted anyways but geesh!
" You can dream on too. No one's stopping you" . Wow. Isn't this nice.
" Nah, she has a point. You'll be safe around...45. Yeah, I'm digging 45" Reese added.
" You guys are crazy" I shook my head. Its a hard knock life for me.
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We roamed the city and were currently at Mickey D's ordering food and these brothers of mines are just the loudest things in here.
" That's why your face built like the last piece of bread. Bread face having ahh" Mitri said getting on Reese.It was starting to get hard for me to breathe.
One of the people working there came over to where we were asking us to tone it done but that wasn't such a bright idea.
" While you worried about us you need to iron your face foe. All them wrinkles not cutting it." I can't deal. I couldn't hold it in no more. As rude as it seemed I busted into a fit laughter.
I really wouldn't trade my brothers for a thing on this Earth.
