" Hmmm?" he was on his phone barely paying me any attention.
" How much you love me?"
" Not enough to do whatever you about to ask me". We both laughed. I was laying on the floor. We just finished Try Outs Day 1 and I felt so sore I couldn't get up.
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" Well, at least, help me up."
" I'm gone drag you. I don't think you want my help."
" Ugghhh" It took a while but I did get up.
After that night at the party nothing really changed. That next morning he did ask what got into me but I just said I don't remember some of the things that happened. Technically I wasn't lying because there was no way I would remember every single thing that happened that night. In school word went around quicker than a cheetah that we were dating but, all I had to was tell that loud mouth girl and that ended it. Now, people are confused but, that's their problem.
I was slightly happy with the position I was in now. It was taking time but, I ask God to help me know when to act, understand, and when to speak. I stopped asking, " Why is so much happening in my life?" or" Why can't I look like this or that person?" There are way more questions I could ask but, he has a reason for everything he does and in due time I will know. I just need to ask for patience and for him to allow me to see the signs he sends me. Most people get in relationships early and I feel some type of way because I'm about to graduate and I have never had one. I never even had a person I liked like me. One day someone is going to adore and cherish me & forever want me in their life so I'm not going to trip. My time is coming.
JR dropped me home like the bestest bestfriend he is and I went in. It was packed! There was one foreign car but, I assumed that one of my brother's friends were here so I didn't trip. There was loud talking, laughing here and there all while a TV was playing in the background. I proceeded to walk to greet my family that I haven't seen all day then, I stopped in my tracks. I was kind of distracted by the fumes of good food filling the air but this was more important. I was looking at the back view and the figure was too familiar. I guess no one noticed I came in yet but, I couldn't move even if I wanted to. This can't be the person I was thinking of. I took my glasses off as if that was supposed to help. He turned around and caught my eye.
" You're here" smiling like everything was sweet. Everyone looked at me waiting for me to say something but I didn't. I hurried to my room slamming the door, locked it and began to ball out crying. It was my father. The dead beat. Why would my mom let him back in after so much pain he caused. I quickly made a decision that I wasn't ever going to let him back in my life. He had his chance and he messed up. I couldn't afford to add on to the pain I already had built.
My mom came banging on the door. I already knew it was her.
" Don't lock my doors. You don't pay nothing around here." I honestly was tired of that comeback. She didn't acknowledge the fact that I was crying but, I wasn't going to trip. This is how it always is.
I figured I left my charger in JR's hands after he asked to borrow and never returned so I went into Gia's old room borrowing hers for the moment. As I was out the room I peeked and he was still here. He was tapped out on the couch. Everyone was here except Demetri. This was normally the time when the kids got picked up from afterschool care. He wanted to " practice" around kids. He was a good uncle I guess but now he was more involved. Gia and Genesis took advantage of it and barely did anything. Reese and I found it quite funny how they were playing him.
I heard my little stomach making a noise making me realize how hungry I was. I wasn't in the mood to eat the food my mom made even though it smelled good. He probably ate some and I didn't even want us to have the same thing in our system. I was craving Checkers. Since Metri was out I was going to get what I wanted.
" MEETTRRII" I texted. He replied right away making me frown. I wanted my food but, he's supposed to be driving. He knows better than to be on the phone.
" What" He really can lose the attitude with me. I didn't do nothing to him.
" I want some checkers" I added " Please" at the end.
" No, there's food at home"
" I don't want that food" It would have worked if he was in person and I pouted but, he couldn't see me so I put on the face and sent the picture to him. He was probably going to laugh. I'm not pose to be texting him but I really want some checkers right about now.
" NO RIONA" he texted back
I called him. This was unacceptable. " No is no, RI"
" I'm not letting neither you, Shemar, or Cedes in until I get my food and banana split milkshake." I locked the doors making sure he heard it.
" You act like I can't get Reese to open it" in a tone making me feel dumb. I didn't think of that.
" Reese isn't here "partially lying. He was in one of the rooms but not here were I am.
" Stop playing with me girl". This was fun.
" You're not going to get in until. Pa sleeping on the couch so you can't come in from the back. You might want to know, I want the Bacon Roadhouse, fries of course, and don't forget the shake. I wanted to try the Kool-Aid slushy. What do you think?" I teased.
" Riona get off my line" he sounded hopeless realizing he had no way out.
"Toodles, see you later" I hung up, satisfied. I knew he was going to bring it now. Me and Metri were the only ones that would rather go through the worse than be around our father. I needed to make up another name for him because he definitely wasn't a father to me. He left while me and Metri just started school. Reese isn't okay with him leaving but, he doesn't hold a grudge like we do. He barely talks to him. He barely talks to anyone. Genesis and Gia were always tight with him and nothing changed. They continued having conversations like he never left. Couldn't have been me.
I waited watching out the window until Metri pulled up and I ran out.
" What I tell you about coming out like that" I still had on my shorts from practice. I forgot. I greeted my nieces and nephews flooding them with kissed before I took my food and ran in.
" You said Reese left." he barged into my room.
" No, I said he wasn't here." Pointing to where I was standing. " I'm not responsible for your assumption of 'here'". He mugged me. I didn't care. I had my food.
I sat on my laptop still looking through 'Sneaker News'. I loved them so much I just never got them. I could've been a female hype beast. I might be when I get older.
" These are too clean" showing him the Copper Foamposites that displayed on the page.
" I'll get them for you for you're birthday" he said making me cheese hard.
" REALLLLYY" I didn't even remember my birthday was coming up. I rarely did anything. I don't have no friends.
" Wait...when do you get your Report Card?"
" A week before"
" You get a 3.0 or higher and those are yours" I did my little dance which made him laugh. That was too easy. I could do that but, I had a short attention span so that meant no more nap periods. Yes. I had a sleeping class but now I wasn't going to slack. If I didn't slay anymore for the rest of the school year. I would on my birthday.
" Say less" I showered before pulling out my homework that I wasn't even planning on doing. Them copper's were mines.
