SEVENTEEN Imagines

Imagine 6: Hurting Myself

Wonwoo's Point of View

My goal is to hurt her, but in the end, I'm also hurt.

My sister almost killed herself because of Y/N. She embarrassed her in front of many people and bullied her again and again, yet here I am, just standing while looking at my sister crying. I wanted to help and protect her but, she doesn't want to. Even if I insist to protect her, she won't let me. She also doesn't want the public to know about our real relationship. We're actually siblings, we kept our relationship secret because of my dad; we actually have different moms.

I know she's just my step-sister, but I don't treat her nor see her like that. She is my sister and I cared for her.

So to take revenge, I dated Y/N. I will hurt her in the end. I want to see her crying in front of me and begging me to stay with her. I want to see the pain in her eyes.

My sister didn't agreed with my plan but I didn't listen to her. This is the least thing I could do to for my sister, a least thing to do to make Y/N feel the same pain that my sister had felt because of her.

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Today is our 17th day since we started dating. Today is Saturday so I'm just gonna lay down on my bed. I was about to close my eyes and sleep again, but my phone suddenly rings.

I sat up and answered my girlfriend's call.

"Hello?"

"Wonwoo, let's go to the mall today!"

"Again?"

"Pleaseee Wonwoo~"

"Okay okay, get ready now, I'm gonna pick you up on your house"

"Thank you Wonwoo~"

Then I hang up the call right away. Another tiring day, I don't want to do this but what can I do? I want to take revenge, I must do this even if I'm already sick of this.

I just simply washed up my face then changed my clothes. I got out of my house and drove all the way to Y/N's house.

When I arrived there, I saw her right away in front of their house's gate.

"Wonwoo!", she shouted and smiled brightly.

Your smile will be gone soon.

"Let's go?", I said as I got out from the car. I offered my hand and she happily held it then I opened the car's door for her to get in the car and I closed the door gently. When I get in the driver's seat, I smiled to her then started the engine.

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"Let's buy some clothes on Penshoppe, my friend said they have new arrivals", she said when we arrived in the mall. 

"Sure..", I simply said and smiled tiredly.

Then she notices it, "Wonwoo, are you okay? You look tired. Are you feeling unwell?", she worriedly asked to me which made me wondered if she even got the doubt to ask this toward my sister who she effortlessly torture.

"No, I'm fine. Let's go", I replied so she nodded and leads the way.

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When we arrived there, she ran inside the shop and started looking to some clothes. I just followed her wherever she goes then she stopped and looked on the couple hoodie.

"Wonwoo look! This couple hoodie is so cute. Let's buy it!", she brightly said.

"Y/N we don't nee-"

"Excuse me ma'am! I will take this couple hoodie", she said to the sales lady.

"Okay ma'am. By the way, this couple hoodie is a perfect fit for the both of you. It will make you look like a cute couple", the sales lady complimented.

So we wore it, then we both faced the mirror and I strangely felt something. To be honest, the sales lady was right. We do look like a cute couple, which made my heart fluttered.

Why am I feeling this?

What is happening to me?

"Wonwoo, I think the sales lady was right. We really look like a cute couple", she said while looking at the mirror, smiling.

"Yeah, I think so", I said, looking away.

After that, we ate lunch then head back home. When I got inside my room, I sat above my bed and started thinking about the thing that happened back at the mall.

"Why does my heart fluttered?", I murmured.

What if I am already in love with her?

What if I can't let her go?

"No! No, Jeon Wonwoo! You must hurt her, that's your goal!", I said then I smashes myself down on my bed.

"This is bad. Really bad..."

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Few days passed, I admit it, I'm already in love with her. Today is our 2nd monthsary and today, I've finally decided to break up with her, before things could go worst. I must let her go while I could still do it.

"Happy 2nd monthsary Wonwoo!", she said and hugged me.

I smiled a little as I broke the hug and looks at her, "Y/N, I have something to say", I coldy said.

"What is it?"

"Let's break up", I straightly said with no hesitation.

After that, there was a loud silence around us, but the she broke it and spoke.

"You're gonna break up with me? For real?"

She looked down, "But why?", she said and sobbed.

I should be happy right now but.... my heart is aching so bad. I guess dating her was a mistake after all. I guess, I should've listened to my sister, I shouldn't be feeling like this right now.

"I don't love you anymore", is all I could reply to her, showing her nothing but a cold expression. She is now crying in front of me, really hard, and here I am, stopping myself from letting a tear escape from my eyes.

"What did I do Wonwoo? Did I do something wrong? Please tell me, please! I can't live without you", she cried as she begged to me. 

This is my goal, and I did it. 

I hurt her... as well as myself.

"I'm sorry Y/N", is all I could say. I don't want to speak anymore. I started walking away from her, without looking back at her because I don't want to change my decision. I finally did it and I'm done.

I then entered the classroom like nothing even happened.

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After all of our classes finished, I went home right away. I don't want to see Y/N's face, I don't want to see her crying because of me.

When I finally got home, I quickly went inside of my room then cried as hard as I can. All of the emotions that I felt a while ago, I let them all out. I couldn't held it in anymore, it just hurts so bad.

I'm sorry Y/N. I'm so sorry.

THE NEXT DAY

When I woke up, I washed up right away then went downstairs to eat my breakfast. While eating, my mom turned on the TV and so I listened to the news.

"A student from Sebong High School committed suicide last night. She was identified as Y/N, 17 years old"

When I heard what the reporter just stated, my world just strangely stops. I don't know how to react, I want to cry and die at the same time. I felt guilty. There's no other reason behind Y/N's death. It was because of our break up, it was because of me. 

I'm an idiot. 

Y/N died... because of me.

The End