Kind Of An Introvert

Chapter 46| Sorry|

"Imagine dealing with that every day" Right after some girls ask to get a picture with him so we stepped out the way and let him do his thing. At least he's still getting love but, I dig what he was saying.

My phone rang.

"Yo"

"Where's Metri?" I heard Cymone. I got to start checking the Caller ID so I won't get caught up one day.

" He with me, Wassup?"

" I called and he wasn't answering".

"Oh, You tryna talk to him now?"

"Nah,I was just wondering but the school called me cause no one went to pick the kids up"

"I thought Riona was on that"

"I thought so too but I guess not. I called but she's not picking up. I'll go get them though"

"Alright, I tell him" Riona tripping.

D E M E T R I

Reese tapped me.

"Whats good bruh?" I turned. The way he looked at me mad me feel nervous. I raised an eyebrow.

"Riona didn't get the kids." I hope she didn't do nothing stupid cause now I she really gonna get in trouble and I'm not gona stop her from getting yelled at. I noticed she really been off lately. She's barely home and when she is she only leaves her room for food. I've been meaning to ask her what's been going on. I hope it's not about Levi because it's nothing to bring a round 2 his way. I know I should've never allowed this.

"You tried calling the house?"

"Yea, nobody is picking up". I texted Cymone and see if she could get the kids and she said she was already on it.

"Cmon, let's go". I guess mom overheard. Damn she really in trouble now. I could hear it in her voice. There was no way off getting her out of this. I tried to play it cool and dapped the boys up. I told them we have to link again before Tray had to leave again.

"Just hit my lineup" I said. We gave each other a manly hug and then left. I was thinking where Riona was.

I got the keys from Reese and drove home. Cymone texted me saying she got them and they're on the way home making me feel some type of relief.

Molly phone started ringing. She dug in her purse and took it out answering.

"Yo" she answered just like Reese. I see him rubbing off on her a lot too. The lingo and the fashion

"Riona- She- Hurry" I heard her brother yelled from the other side of the phone.

"What" we all said.

"JUST HURRY UP! GO TO HER CRIB!" I did the dash. I sat close to the seat and everything like it was a race car game. But, this was serious. Dodging cars and making sure 12 wasn't around I finally made it home and Cymone pulled up right behind me. Awkward enough the car was still here. Either she was still here or she left without it.

When we walked in the energy was off. I could feel it but, I was steering my mad from any bad thoughts. Mom was tripping like she usual does but this time I was tuning her out.

I was walking towards her room and heard a sound playing. Oh No! I already knew what was going on. The song told it all. I was scared to walk in afraid of what I might see. Tears started to fall.

I pushed the door opened anyways and just as I pictured it. There she was. Joyner Lucas words expressed how I was feeling.

I heard someone gasp behind me and it was Mercedes. Good thing Cymone walked in right after to pull her out. I told her to close the door. I had my moment and of course I blamed myself. I couldn't think though. It's like I was frozen and all I could do was see and hear but not talk or think. The song played longer while tears fell down my face and Reese called the ambulance.

I hope you got what you wanted
I hope you finally happy
It's too late for you
Been going out of my mind
You don't know how many times that I done prayed for you
I hope you hear me, goddamn it
Cause I got so much shit that I wanna say to you
I used to shine, now I'm all in the dark
I remember I used to tell you to follow your heart
But goddamn it, look at you now, it's all of your fault
How could you?
Maybe it's my fault
I shoulda paid more attention to what you been doing
Maybe I should have been more of an influence
I can't believe that you're dead, I fu-
I read your letter and all I could do is have mixed feelings about it
But I'll forever be attached to you, damn
Part of me feels bad for you
A part of me feels like you weak and I'm mad at you
And I don't mean to be insensitive
But I don't understand how we couldn't prevent this shit
You took the easy way out
Goddamn it, you dead
I mean, look what you did
I'm so f*cking upset, how could you be so selfish?
Nigga, how could you be so selfish?
Now you're gone, you done left me so helpless
I wonder what God thinks
I hope you in God's place behaving yourself
Yo, what the f*ck you gotta say for yourself? (say for yourself)
Look, I really feel lost without you
I hate the fact you think the world is better off without you
And my mind's spinning, this is the line finish
Truth is, I don't care how you feel about my feelings
And I'd be lying to you if I told you I'm fine, listen
I know that you can hear me, all I need is like five minutes
I just wanna reach inside the casket and pull you out
I'm sorry this isn't something that we both could figure out
I wish I could hear you now
Is your soul missing?
I wonder if you could do it again, would you do it different?
Tell me what death is like
Was it meant for you, brodie?
Did the heaven support it?
Are you f*cking happy now?
Did you get what you wanted?
Isn't this what you wanted?
I feel the temperature falling
And you've been suicidal back day you were nine?
Yeah, even back then, you was nine
We was living on the edge, couldn't stay out the fire
Grandma told us we should take it one day at a time
And damn it, look at you now
Shit, but it's a new day
And if you can't hear me, it's probably too late
F*CK