it's scary
the amount of power you still have over me
it's bad
but i still remember exactly how we met
i shouldn't
but you are far from easy to forget
i loved you
i loved you to the point where it hurt seeing you hurt
god, i thought you were amazing
maybe you were
but after everything i can't help wanting to assume you were faking
what's even more terrifying... i don't think you were
you are bad for me
you make me question my sanity
but i still care
why? why do i still care?
you manipulated me,
traumatized me
made me think what you did to yourself was my fault
you made me hate myself
and yet...
if it were a choice between me or you
you would still win
1/3/18
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a happy kind of blue
Poetryit's a good kind of madness. a happy kind of blue ~~~ {lowercase intended} ~~~ ~cover by birdiehere~ ~highest ranked at #46 in poetry 5/17/18~
