Thursday, May 10th
2:00 am
"Just go to sleep. Just close your eyes, and fall asleep." I whispered to myself as I rolled onto my side. Most nights my mattress felt like a cloud, but with all these thoughts running through my head, it was uncomfortable and stiff.
"What have I gotten myself into? I can't believe he actually fucking asked me. What if this is all a joke?!"
I rolled my body to the other side of my bed, pulling up my blanket to cover my mouth.
"I'd feel like such a fucking idiot."
I eyed my phone on my nightstand. My hand crawled out from underneath my blanket and grabbed it; unlocking to check the time, I groaned lightly to how late the night was.
"It's probably best if him and I take things slow... right? There's nothing wrong for taking things slow.. that way you still have a chance to protect yourself."
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"Hello? (Y/n)?"
"... H-Hello."
"Are you feeling okay? It's two-thirty in the morning."
The grip I had on my phone grew tighter and I held my pillow closer to my chest. A few tears rolled down my cheeks as I stared off into my pitch black room.
"(Y/n)?" Dan's voice called out again on the other end of the call.
"I'm here, I'm okay... It's just..."
"Just what?"
"This is such a fucking waste of time. You're embarrassing yourself; just hang up already."
"... Can we take things slow, please? I'm new to... well, everything, you know?"
"We'll go at whatever speed you want, love, alright? I'm more than okay with slow; whatever makes you comfortable."
"... Thank you."
"Are you sure you're okay?" Dan sleepy voice asked, "Should I come over?"
"No, really, I'm okay." I loosened the grip on my phone, "I'm sorry."
"You're the only person I run for, so you just say the words and I'll be there in no time." Dan's words brought a small grin to tug on my lips. "Get some sleep, okay? You have work in the morning and I need to wake up in time to tell you good morning."
"... You purposely wake up to tell me that?"
The call fell silent, and I could practically feel Dan's awkwardness radiating through my phone.
"Well- I-..." He took a deep breath before speaking again, "I look forward to waking up and talking to you. I guess you could say you make my mornings a little more... yellow."
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8:35 am
"good morning!"
"i overslept ): good morning to you too tho!!"
"how are you feeling?"
