emails from me

email one.

to: lane

from: me

subject: sorry's are never enough.

email one.

a list of things i'm sorry for;

a list by aspen clary lawrence,

for lane felix warner:

-i'm sorry for leaving you before you woke up the day after we,

well,

you know.

-i'm sorry for leaving before we could have our first summer together.

-i'm sorry for taking your yankees jersey; i like to sleep in it. it still smells like you.

-i'm sorry for not looking at you while sober more often. you're really beautiful, [don't be mad, it's true. sorry].

-sorry i didn't take getting sober more seriously, like you did. the jack was calling my name, though.

-also, i took three pairs of your boxers to sleep in, so, sorry for that too.

-and sorry that you'll have to go and buy yourself more because i won't be there to do it for you.

-i'm sorry for eating all the cheerios before i left.

i took some in a baggie for the drive.

oops.

-tell your sister i'm sorry for not saying goodbye to her, and for not thanking her for letting me stay these last few weeks.

-i'm sorry for writing you a note on a blue sticky note as a way of good bye.

you deserve so much more than that.

-i'm sorry for not answering your texts.

i left my phone back at dad's.

i have a toss-away phone,

and your number's programmed in.

not that i need it;

i have it memorized.

-i'm sorry for leaving my heart back there with you, but if i brought it with me, it'd miss you too much.

i'm just really sorry lane.

i love you still.

and i know you love me.

but sometimes love isn't enough.

-me

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a/n

i'm just, i'm sorry guys):

but i love this letter, as well as the next few.

what's your favorite part of aspen 'i'm sorry' list? (if you're not too sad to have a favorite.)

mine has gotta be the boxers part tbh

i'll probably update tomorrow morning, like the original schedule for the letters.

can we get this above two hundred votes to get us started?

ps, i decided to finish with the emails before excerpts! and if you deleted letters from your library, you may want to go get it back, because they're still be one or two bonus chapters in aspen's pov!

until soon,

-me ;)