Silence- Adopted by Demi Lovato

Panic.

CHAPTER 54

Demi's POV

'It was 1:37 when I heard her scream.' 

           I took the stairs two at a time. Sobs pushed through my chest as I raced towards my daughter's echoing screams. "MOMMY." She shrieked, and I busted through the door, carrying a baseball bat that I had grabbed from the living room, but when I saw Mac thrashing on the bed screaming I dropped it and ran over to the bed. I grabbed her and shook her gently, she just screamed louder and kicked out. "MAC!" I yelled, trying to wake her up, tears were streaming down my face. She's had nightmare's before. but not like this. I wrapped my arms around her and attempted to just calm her down, but she kicked my stomach. I rolled away and gasped in pain. "NO NO NO!!" She wailed. I sprinted to the bathroom and filled a glass of water, bringing it back to the bed. "I'm so sorry babygirl." I whispered, and dumped the water onto her. Mac sat up in bed like she had been shocked. Her eyes wide and confused for a split second, before tears overtook them and she began to sob again. "Oh Mackenzie." I said, and climbed onto the bed, pulling her into a hug. She struggled in my arms and I dropped my hold automatically. "Mac?" She held her throat and gasped for air, starting to shake. "Make it stop Mommy! I cant breathe! Make it stop PLEASE!" She screamed the last word so loud my ears were ringing. then it hit me, she was having a panic attack. 

          "Mac." I said, taking her hand, ignoring her when she flinched, I picked her up and laid down with her, not letting go even when she struggled. She slowly calmed down while I rubbed her back, then a whimper came from her mouth and she started to hyperventilate. "Mac, baby you need to calm down. Sweetie do you feel mommy's breathing? Try to match it, in and out. Listen to my voice." I whispered, as I took slow deliberate deep breaths. After a while, her breathing even out, and I could feel her heartbeat slow. I hugged her tightly, not caring that she was still soaking wet from the water. She curled into while she cried, still shaking. I realized it wasn't from panic, but the cold. I tried to get off of the bed so I could carry her to the bathroom, but she held me in a death grip. "Baby, I'm going to bring you to the bathroom, you need to take a bath, you'll feel better. At the word 'Bath' Mac's eyes widened and she shook her head. I sighed, and picked her up, carrying her to the bathroom anyway. I sat her on the counter and she finally let go of me. I rubbed the tears off of her face and started the bath water. Mac was too exhausted to protest as I undressed her, and placed her in the warm water. "See babygirl, this isn't so bad." I said, trying not to stare at the scars on her tiny body from her father's abuse. I filled a container with water and let it flow over her long brown hair. She took a shakey breath. and nodded. "Mac." No answer. "Mac, look at me." She opened her chocolate eyes and peered up at me. "I love you." She just nodded and closed her eyes again. 

           I shampooed and conditioned her hair, then dried her off and dressed her in warm, soft, pajamas. I carried her downstairs and made hot chocolate, setting two mugs on the table in front of us, Mac took a tiny sip. "What happened baby?" She just stared at her hands. "Mac." Nothing. "Baby I need you to tell me why you were crying." This time, her eyes met mine, "It was a dream.... I think." I nodded, we were finally getting somewhere. "You thought it was real?" She nodded, "It felt so real.. And I couldn't wake up." "What was it about?" Mac looked down at her hands, as if she was scared to answer. "You." 

        Silence. 

       "M-Me?" I choked out, looking down. "Y-You left me." Mac said sadly, staring into her drink. Ah, now I understand, I took a deep breath and looked up at- an empty chair. I sighed deeply, and put my head in my hands on the table, rubbing my face. I sat there for a while, just thinking, until I heard the sound on tiny feet coming towards me. I turned in my chair, and Mac climbed up onto my lap. She wrapped her arms around my waist and whimpered, "I'm sorry mommy, please don't send me back, i'll be good." My mouth dropped open in shock, I pulled her close to me. "Do not EVER say that again. Mackenzie Lovato you are my daughter, and I love you to the moon and back. you are never going back to that orphanage again, okay babygirl?" I whispered fiercely into her ear. She sniffled, and nodded. I picked her up and walked over to the couch, pulling her onto my lap and throwing a blanket over both of us. "So, tell me more about this dream of yours." I said, Mac sighed. "I don't knwo what I did, but you were really scary. You kept yelling at me, and throwing things. I tried to run away b-but..." Mac trailed off with tears in her eyes. "It's okay babygirl, talk to me." I said, trailing my fingers down her back in patterns. She took a shuddering breath before starting again. "Y-You ran after me, and grabbed my arm. You put me in the car and drove to the or-orph." Her brow furrowed, as she struggled with her word, before skipping over it entirely. "My daddy was there, and he started to hit me, and you didn't let me come back with you. A-And-" I put my finger over her lips and hugged her, trying to fit all of her broken pieces together. By now she was sobbing, and tears of my own were rolling down my cheeks. I laid down with her still in my arms and whispered, "That's never going to happen babygirl, I love you more than you can ever imagine." Mac sniffled, "I love you too momma." I kissed her forehead, 

           "Always." 

Hiiiiiiii! Sorry I left you guys for so long with a cliff-hanger(; But Mac's relatively fine!! I was going to update sooner, but I work at a florist and we got super swamped for Valentine's day! But here it is! I'll probably make up for the time loss by updating reeallly sooon!(:

Comment what you want to happen, and VOTE!(:

1. Should Niall come back? AS FRIENDS. 

2. What drama? 

    a. Would you guys be upset if Demi almost relapses? 

    b. Would you guys be upset if Demi like lost her temper with Mac?

3. What cities should Demi go to while she tours?(; 

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-Rachel