Črying ćrystals

Chapter 7

-Nagisa-
I unlocked my door with my house keys.

"I'm home..."I said as I closed the door behind me.

I took out my shoes and placed them on the racks.The house was quiet.My father was still on his business trip which meant I can visit her again...

I screamed in frustration,"Ugh.what the Fuck is wrong with me?!"

I feel so angry and sad at the same time.Mixed emotions.

"Go away!Leave me alone!"I said angrily as I grabbed my hair and clenched it

Do it.No one cares if you die.Like they say,you're worthless,stupid,dumb,ugly,A waste of space,not needed,not loved.

"..shut up.."I whispered

Isn't it true?You're just a dumb girl who should have been a boy since birth.If it weren't for you,maybe your dad would have gotten the kid he always wanted and your mother won't have cancer!So,do it.kill yourself.Overdose on those pills you keep.Cut.Jump off the window.

"I said SHUT UP!"I finally screamed

After that,I heard nothing.I'm guessing that my consciousness wanted me to die...

No,its just my imagination..Ignore it,it'll go away

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I thrashed around my bed.I couldn't sleep.Again.

"Fucking insomnia...You Lil' Bitch"I said as I got out of bed to watch television

I went out of my room and switch the lights switch on..

Weird..
It won't switch on...

Maybe I missed it?
....
No way,I'm sure I switched it on!