-Nobody's pov-
The two friends walked back to the bluenette's apartment,side by side.The afternoon breeze passed by and the red head kept taking short glances at his friend.
The bluenette noticed this and asked,"What is it,Karma?"
"S-sorry,but I can't help but notice you were wearing concealer on your face..."He said,scratching his left cheek with a finger softly
The bluenette's eyes widened and covered her face.
H-he can see it?!Shit!
"O-oh,it's nothing!I always wear makeup!"she lied,giving him a fake smile
The red headed seemed abit sad/angry since his friend lied to him,"You didn't wear any makeup yesterday..."
"I-Um,Uh...."Her mind was a mess now
"What's happening in your house?Why do you always wear long sleeves even when it's burning outside?What exactly are you hiding from me,Nagisa?"The red head held her shoulder's firm with both hands,looking into her eyes.His eyes filled with worry
"Nothing!Everything's fine,I'm not hiding anything away from you!"She lied again
Caring for someone like me hurts,Karma.Stop it....
Tears were threatening to fall as she tried her best to not cry.She hated crying in front of people since she doesn't want to look weak,yet,she hates it when someone doesn't see her pain
"Nagisa,please....Tell me,.."Karma said,his face was now full of worry and his hands were shaking a little
"I'm sorry,Karma...I can't tell you....I don't like talking about this certain subject you're thinking of.."she said quietly as I got out of his grip
"I see....But,If you think you need someone to talk to,you can always c-come to me,Okay?"He said,giving a slight smile
If only it was easy,Karma,You only know half of what I suffer from
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"See you tomorrow,Karma!"The bluenette waved at his friend who was waving back with a grin
After watching him leave,she closed the door behind her and went to her room.
She locked the door behind her and undressed herself.
She stared at her cuts in her mirror,looking at them closely.The cuts on wrists and thighs,Some even on her stomach.Those weren't the only thing on her pale skin.Again,her body was full of bruises and wounds from her father's abusive actions towards her.
"I'm ugly.....I was always alone.Karma probably only became friends with me just to learn about my dark secrets and ditch me afterwards or just because he pitied me."she said coldly
The Bluenette stared at my face,"I hate myself,I really should die already,Why am I still alive?!"she said,punching the mirror,hoping it would break
But to her dismay,it didn't, I'm weak.I was always weak,Lonely.stupid,dumb,worthless. She thought
She curled myself up to a ball and began crying.Her head resting on my knees as my hands wrapped around it.
-Nagisa-
I began sobbing uncontrollably,these tears.The preasure on my chest seemes to get heavier every day.I just want it all to end,I want to sleep forever,I don't want to wake up.As Every Second goes by,A fresh batch of tears fall from my cheeks and onto the ground like heavy raindrops
"M-maybe...sugino would be online.."I said quietly as I wiped the tears off of my face
I took out my laptop and logged in to facebook [Note,I forgot how to use facebook since I deleted it 3 yrs ago]I began scrolling through my page and something caught my eye
Okuda:Suicidal people should just die,including you,you bitch
Kayano:Disgusting,suicidal fuckers like you don't deserve to live,they are just a waste of space!
The messages sent to me hurt me.In fact,those were my friends who are now my bullies,Kayano,Okuda.
I told them about my depression and they were immediately disgusted and started bullying me.They hated people like me.
I cried again and shut my laptop,forgetting to talk to my cousin,Sugino.He was studying overseas amd he was 6 years older than me.I really missed him,he helped me when my mother was hospitalised and stayed with me,but when he left,thats when things went downhill,I still remembered the first time my father hit me...
"Father,here's your cup of tea!"I said happily as I placed it infront of him
He took a sip and spit it out,"Disgusting!It's too sweet!"
He then looked at me angrily,"And Didn't I tell you to stop wearing dresses?!Go change in your room!You're a boy,not a girl!"He said as he slapped me hard across my face
The memory still hunts me to this day.
How I wished I was born as a boy so none of this would happen in the first place...
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Fanfiction[On going]✔ [Completed]✘ [Slow Updates] In which a girl named Nagisa Shiota was forced to crossdress and lived an unhappy life filled with depressing thoughts and sadness
