Sweet & Dark Nothings

192. Unfriended

I thought you were different.
But there isn't such a thing.
What I want doesn't seem to exist
In any human being.
I can wish all I want
But it won't change a thing.
You are you and I am me,
and only sadness can this bring.

I'm not sure it's possible to even have a friend
That doesn't just leave me in the end.
At first I guess I'm an interesting plaything.
Have a laugh at my expense,
Watch me fall,
But you never feel anything.
Humans can be heartless
And cruel little things.

Maybe I was falling a bit for you.
Impossible I know so I tell myself
It's not true.
Maybe I am just lonely
And you were too.
Maybe you had nothing
Better to do.

Maybe you like to play with
Hearts and minds,
And have collected
Dozens over time.

I felt if I spoke my heart
You would turn away like all the rest.
But you led me to the words
As you do best.

Then my worst fears began
To come true.
You said it wasn't me
But that's nothing new.
I said too much
As I always do.
I'm used to people leaving.
I'll get used to this too.