Jaspar One Shots (boyxboy)✔️

This Is My Version

(Lyric breakdown of This Is My Version by Conor Maynard)

Joe's P.O.V

Four in the morning, staring at the ceiling. On my own, like I was last weekend

You left and I guess you had your reasons. Guess you had your reasons, yeah

I'm laying here in our bed your cologne still lingers in the room every thought that is passing through my brain is of you. I miss you like crazy it's been a month since you left it completely sucks.

I said things and I didn't really mean them
Kept going till I saw your heart bleeding
Ruining the only thing I ever believed in
Ever believed in, yeah

I said some terrible things to you things I didn't mean I just thought I needed some space I was stupid. Casp just want you back we can start over but only if you wanted to I know I don't deserve a second chance after what I said.

And even though you're gone
I'm gonna pretend there's nothing wrong
I'm fucking every girl that comes along
Anything is better than to face up to reality, oh oh

When someone asks if I'm alright I'll tell them of course no big deal really but in reality it's a huge fucking deal. I screwed up I made a huge mistake and now I'm afraid it may just be too late to try and fix it. Hiding the pain by hooking up with random guys not like anyone has to know especially not you.

This is my version of heartbreak
This is how I get over you
I don't wanna feel
I don't wanna feel
This is my version of heartbreak
And it's all I know how to do
I don't wanna feel like this anymore
This is my version of a heartbreak

I need to move on get past this mess I don't want to feel like shit anymore I want to be able to wake up and not feel regret. Or guilt kicking me in the stomach reminding me of how shitty I acted. Never in my craziest dreams did I think heartbreak could feel this way.

Clothes on the floor, yeah and the beds all mine
And staying out 'till the sun starts rising
Free as a bird but I'm still not flying
God, I'm trying, yeah

The boys have tried to convince me to stay home for a few nights not to go out and constantly party. I need something tho I need a way to drowned out the memories of you if I want to move past this all. I'm trying my best to make it without you but it's hard as hell you're apart of me and always will be..

And even though you're gone
I'm telling everyone there's nothing wrong
Until I can believe you're not the one
Anything is better than to face up to reality, oh oh

My dad and mum constantly call to see if I'm okay I tell them I'm fine I just haven't found the one yet even tho I know I won't find it anywhere but in you. Zoe is beyond pissed at me refuses to answer my phone calls I can't really blame her tho. I screwed up terribly and it affected more then just the two of us.

This is my version of heartbreak
This is how I get over you
I don't wanna feel
I don't wanna feel
This is my version of heartbreak
And it's all I know how to do
I don't wanna feel like this anymore
This is my version of a heartbreak
This is my version of a heartbreak
This is my version of a heartbreak

I'm trying to find all of these ways to forget you to get over what we had together I want this pain to stop. The memory of your laughter haunts me the same way your tears haunt my dreams both during the day and at night. I just keep replying the day you left I don't know what else to do with myself. This is my version of a heartbreak and it hurts like hell.....

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I hope you guys enjoy this I love breaking down songs then adding little paragraphs after a verse. This song is one of my absolute favorites and I really hope that you enjoy it in this prompt as I do.