Hold me Tight | Vkook

Letting go

Night came, the crickets sounds and the cool breeze whistled all over the blue forest, the wedding is finally over as the newly wedded couple has their own cottage to stay in, while their friends and other family members also has their own seperate place not too far from them, but bigger, it's a good thing that they chose the over night, since their place is too far away from here. It sure is a cold night tonight, the only thing that's keeping them warm is the fireplace, releasing grey smoke above the chimney.

Jungkook was sat on the bed, hands fiddling with his fingers as he sighed, his unsteady heartbeat never lets him relax, and he began to tense up once he felt large hands slowly circling his waist, an arm pulled him up for an embrace, and it was indeed a heart-warming gesture, Taehyungs toned body was pressed barely against his back as the heat of their bodies together reunite, yet Jungkook still felt cold, really cold and nervous inside. He didn't know why he started whimpering in an uncomfortable manner when Taehyung started giving him butterfly kisses, this shouldn't be new to him though, but his questions was left unanswered, even though he already knows why.

It would be wrong to say no, so he kept his eyes shut, all along letting his thoughts take over him until they reached a different position, Taehyung attempted to kiss him first, his hands fists tightly on the olders shirt that kept their bodies apart, he tried to move, but no matter how he tried, they won't move in sync. Every moves that Taehyung does always surprises the younger, when he should always be leaning everything to it, leaving no choice but for the older to lose his hands from Jungkooks certain sensitive skin.

It didn't took long when Taehyung finally gave up with a sigh, kissing the youngers forehead and before Jungkook could even know it, the weight on top of him was now replaced by nothing but the hot atmosphere lingering around the room, he was taken aback, looking directly at Taehyungs eyes, asking 'why' and 'did I make you feel bad' kind of a thing, but when he noticed the smile slowly forming on the olders lips, although it was obviously forced, Taehyung once again brought him closer for another soft kiss on the cheeks, at that moment he knew he didn't lose him, "You were stiff and your lips are shivering, I could tell that you weren't comfortable."

He said and Jungkook couldn't help but to feel guilty about it, "But it's okay, after all that happened, I knew you weren't ready" the older added voice ever sounded so sincere, it's clear that he really wanted to prove his love for the younger, but he thought, respecting Jungkook is still the best way to prove it. Jungkook on the other hand hugged him closer, "I'm sorry if I disappointed you" he heard sniffles, "It's okay, I was just assuming that you might let me so I continued, but it's okay" he answered, hands comforting the other as he can already feel his shirt getting wet, "I-It's just hard c-cause our baby stayed three months inside of me, and I-I didn't e-even got the chance to get her ash, t-then now I feel so bad because I couldn't give you what you want and what you expect f-from me, I'm really sorry Tae, It's all getting back to me and I just couldn't."

He cried, eyes already red and swollen from crying, Taehyung looked at him, and all he saw was a beautiful human being that he knew was his husband, with tears of hurt but full with love, and he couldn't help but to feel the same way, so he kissed him more and softly whispers nothing but all love and sweetness that would calm the other down. Minutes passed and gladly, Jungkook already calmed down, he remained his head on top of the olders chest as Taehyung played with his hair, "Wear a Jacket, we're going out" Taehyung suddenly said out of blue, "To where?, it's already dark", "I know."

Jungkook kept on wondering where were they even going, or if Taehyung was sure about this, yet he still followed anyway. But it's sure is almost but not too far away from the cottage, he then looked back at Taehyung, as the older was concentrated leading the way, his hands gripped tightly on the olders hands as they stopped in front of a river with a mini boat, Taehyung gestured him to sit down, then the fairy lights that decorated the boat lightened, giving a beautiful image in front of Jungkooks eyes.

Taehyung began to pedal, and every time they pass by, a light bulb that was hanging from a tree will light one by one, it was fascinating and beautiful, Jungkook thought, even the view of the night sky with stars, but Taehyungs only view is the person in front of him, then they stopped on a lake, as Taehyung called for Jungkook, the lights from the water lilies and flowers helped them to be able to see each other, "I have something for you" the older said as he got something from his side, Jungkook felt like crying once his hands touched the urn Taehyung handed him, "When you were still in the hospital, I managed to save the babys body, I know I couldn't do the funeral alone since you're still in a state of shock that time so I chose the cremate instead."

"I'm sorry for keeping it from you, it's just that I was so worried about your condition" Taehyung continued and noticed the tears that was forming inside his eyes are already threatening to fall, he leaned in to wipe his tears away, pulling Jungkook closer to him as the younger hugged the urn closer while he sobs, "You were assuming that the baby was a girl, but the doctor told me, we were supposed to have a handsome boy" and that's when Jungkook broke down and cried even harder, sorrow pleads for forgiveness of what he had done like as if it was his fault, Taehyung couldn't help but to shed a little tear and hugged his husband even closer.

Jungkook had always imagined how it felt like carrying their new born baby, and how he missed singing a lullaby, but now, all he holds is an urn, with the ash of his second child inside, and he knew it was time to let go, let alone the angel fly to the heaven and be one of the twinkling stars above, he poured the ash slowly to the water, letting the nature guide his little angel to reach heaven. Taehyung once again, brought Jungkook closer to him, amazed of how tough his partner was, and letting go is also one of the steps for them to start over.

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Nan/N I didn't do well again, I know