Fixing Him ll ♡ jack gilinsky ♡

8

Allison's P.O.V
//// two time skips I'm sorry \\\\\\\

*Two weeks later *

We went from being so clinging and in love to just unpleasant silence in the car, or anywhere and it's killing me... I don't know how it happened.

"Is everything okay Sam?" I ask for the millionth time he groaned "It's fine. Why must you ask the same question repeatedly? It's fine, I'm fine you're fine everything is fine." He said "it..just doesn't..." I paused before looking at him he looked irritated by me. "Maybe I'm just going to stay quiet for the rest of the day.. I'll be in the room. Taking a nap" I lie

Feeling a lump form in my throat as I turned away his hand touching mine as he stopped me. He stood up wrapping his arms around me. "I'm sorry." He simply said "why? Don't be.. I'm irritating yo-" "no, no no. Don't ever think that! You are not irritating me. I'm just so lost in my head that I haven't even realised how much it's affecting you and us.." he sighed squeezing me tightly.

I closed my eyes feeling the tears fall. What hurt more was that these were the words that were said everytime he would say hurtful things. Never did he discuss what was on his mind with me because he would get angry or tell me to leave him alone and lately it's all been getting to me.

"Why are you crying?" He asked "because you're lying." I whispered "We're not fine Sam." I said "somethings bothering you and you won't tell me what it is or I'm not even going to waste any more time and I'll speak with you when I'm ready to speak with you." I say he pulled away "do it. That's so petty of yo-" I gave him a stern look my eyes filling with tears.

"Do you still love him?" He asked I was taken back "who?" I ask "you know who." He said "no. I don't because I've been so focused on you these last two years." I said "Jack. Do you still love him?" He said "we've been over this. I will always love him, but I'm with you and I love you. I love you." I say "he'll have a place in my heart forever because him and I have so much we went through but that happened three years ago. I've been all about you and only had eyes for you for two years now. How could you  even doubt me?" I ask "I'm not going to pitty you. You could love me but still be in love with him." He said

"I really don't even think you heard anything I just said. It was three years ago. Yes Jack is always going to be there he is. Because we're god parents and because Rosy Johnson is his and I's niece. Johnsons daughter who's your niece too. Yeah I will love him always. But it's no longer the way that I have loved you because the way the way I care about you and love you-"

"I saw the way you looked at him." He said "that is what is making me doubt in you. Allison you aren't fooling nobody. I'm a guy, a guy who was been in love with you half his life. A guy who pays so much attention to you. Stop lying to yourself, you will never get to be in love with me the way I or you want to be. Yeah the love you have for me could or may be be bigger or more than what it was for Jack. But you're just really happy with me and I'm completely happy that I make you happy. But I and you, have to face the truth." He slowly and calmly said. My tears pricking at my eyes and sooner or later I would collapse into fits of cries.

"You will not ever fall in love with me. And I've come to conclusions, that I'm okay with it." He said "That's not true Sam. I want to build with you. I want to marry you, I want to grow old with you. I want to have kids with you. Where do you even see or hear anything with jack's name on it?" I ask "in your eyes." He responded "two years and five months into our relationship and you're doubting me now? I have loved you for two years and I am happy but I know but I know I'm in love with you!" I say. "Allison.." he whispered sighing

"These past two years have been literally amazing and I love you so much.. you have made me happy in these two years and we will grow old old together.. just the way we planned before we graduated high school." He said "what are you..." I whispered my voice failing for a second I couldn't get the words, "what are you trying to say?" I ask he stayed quiet. "Sam!" I yell "what are you implying!?" I ask crying "we should see other people.." he said "but what if I don't want to? What if I can't see you with other people?" I ask fully crying "you don't have to see anyone but, let's try.." he said

"Sam I don't want too." I cry "try." He said pulling me into a tight hug as I cried "go out tonight and have drinks and enjoy yourself." Sam said "I'll do the same with Nathan and Johnson" He said I sniffed before nodding to wipe my tears but nothing helped.

"I'm going to go nap." I lie before rushing out of his room. A crying mess and with the luck I had both of my best friends happened to be walking in the same hallway. "Ally?! Oh my god." Cassidy said "Baby what's wrong?!" Stassy asked I wiped my tears away calming myself down. "Let's go out tonight?" I say "what about Sam?" "He's seeing someone else well he plans to. He and I just ended and I'm not okay but if he wants me to pretend to be, I..." I stopped myself voice failing again "I can't." I whispered "lets go to my room." Stass said

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After crying in the shower for an hour and explaining to Stassy and Cassidy I was now feeling a bit better, I stood in front of my mirrors going over my outfit again I sighed adding on some more lipstick.

"I'm ready" I smile "you do know we don't-" I stopped Cassidy "We're going out tonight and I and you and Stassy aren't going home until the party stops were having as much fun as we can." I say before walking out seeing Sammy leaving our old room

"You look nice.." he said "you do too.." I say looking at the ground curving my lips inward "have fun, and be safe." He said "you too.." I say as he already made his way down the stairs "let's go." I said "game on." Stass said as we walked out downstairs to our driver.

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Drinks were served and I lost count on how many i took. I just knew tonight of all nights I shouldn't have drank but I need to let loose once in a while and I guess once in a while is now. It was so dark in here that I lost Cassidy and Stassy but they were dancing together as I danced away I felt someone behind me as we back grinding and dancing together I was to drunk to look or care for who it was.

I am single right? "Let's get out of here?" He said as I nodded "there's a room upstairs. It's as dark as it is up there as it is down here but we could do less talking and-" "be active.." I say "yeah. Let's do that." He said grabbing My hand as we walked up the stairs into a room and our clothes dissapearing from our bodies.

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*a week later*

The incident that happened last week will never be brought up. I know who I've slept with and all I could think about was that it was some how supposed to be this way although I'd wish with everything in me it wasn't.

I was walking down stairs nobody but Johnson, the baby and Jack here. Which was horrible if you asked me.

"I just need to come in contact with whoever I slept with the night at the club." I hear Jack. I suddenly halt my heart beating faster. "Why bro? Just let it go.." I hear Johnson "I can't." He said "yes you can dude." Johnson said as I watched him giving Rosy little faces.

"No I really can't." He sighed "why can't you dude?" "I didn't use a condom. This girl could be pregnant for all I know.. and If she returns or something how will I explain to Allison?" He said my heart sinking as I sat back on the steps beside the wall.

I suddenly felt sick and stood quickly rushing to the restroom.

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