Taming The Devil (boyxboy)

Tame 13

"C-Cai, I really don't have a boyfriend. I..."

His eyebrows furrowed.

"Really? But it seems like you're in love."

W-What? What did he just said? I.. I think I just lost all the oxygen inside my lungs. I can't breathe. My hands feel cold.

"Shit. Breathe, Al. Breathe."

He leaned towards the table and handed me a bottled water. My hands are shaking as i took it from him and took some gulps. Goodness. I'm having a panic attack.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to shock you. I'm sorry. Are you okay? Oh gosh.."

He's starting to panic. He looks really worried and guilty as he kept on apologizing. I reached for his hand and squeezed it. I took deep breaths as i try to calm myself. Inhale.. exhale.

Do.. do i really look like that? Am.. am i really in love? No way.

"I'm so sorry Al. I won't mention it again. I'm sorry."

I closed my eyes. Is he right? Am i just denying it? I'm not.. I'm not ready for that thing. I can't acknowledge it. It's too early for that. I.. I can't. It can't be. H-He's..

"Don't think too much Al. I won't say anything about that ever again. I promise."

He's the first person who came into my mind. Of all the people.. why him? Why?

"I'm so sorry Al. Please say something. I'm sorry for not believing you. If you say so then I---"

"No."

He was clearly taken aback. Pain is reflected to his face. He let go of my hand slowly as he slumped on his chair. His eyes were downcast. You need to do this Al. He's your friend. He will understand you whatever it takes.

"T-There was this guy.."

I started as i fidget with the hem of my shirt. My heart is beating so fast right now. It seems like there's a big lump in my throat, but i need to continue. I need to get this off of my chest.

"I-I swear this is not what you think! I swear. I-It's just.. H-He's... he's.."

Goodness this is so hard. Why do i sound so defensive? Goodness Al just say it! I took a big sigh.

"H-He's messing with my mind for weeks now.."

Silence..

I said it. Finally. He looked up. I can see the surprise look on his face. I can't blame him. He's trying to sink in the words that i just said. I can't believe that i really did it. Goodness.

"So.. there's really a guy?"

I nodded hesitantly as i bite my lower lip nervously. He open his mouth to say something again but he just closed it afterwards. He straightened up his back. I think he understood it now.

"Is he your boyfriend?"

W-What did he just asked? This is insane. I think i just lost my voice to speak. I shook my head rapidly. I can feel tomato starts to appear. Not now. Go away. I don't need you right now. This is embarrassing.

"I see. So.. you like this guy?"

Oh no. Oh hombre. W-What? Ofcourse not! What's with that question? I.. I don't like him. I really don't. T-That's impossible. I..

"I-I don't know.."

Oh hombre. I covered my face with my hands. What did i just answered? You're so done Alexis Rodrigues. You're so stupid. You're insane. Totally insane.