He Doesn't Even Know I'm Alive! | version 1

40: I hate you!

So I took Lydia to the Lynches the next day and she had lots of fun. And I was right. She loves Ryland. After, the boys played with her and me and Rydel sat on the couch talking.
"How you holding up?" She asks.
"Good" lie. And she knew it was one.
"Lena your amazing. Most people make a horrible suicide attempt and just give up like that. But you've been staying strong for the past years." She says.
"Thanks Delly" I smile.
"So... has Riker sort of..." she trails off
"Lost my trust? 100% yes" I say.
"I don't blame you" she agrees. Riker walked in and spotted Lydia.
"Hey Lyds!" He bent down to pick her up and she ran to me. "Go away!"
"Go away" she yells. We were all really shocked. Riker looked appalled and sad
"Lydia it's just me, Riker" he says.
"No!" She shouts.
"I'm not gonna hurt you!" He says.
"You made my Mommy cry! You made her bleed! And you liar! Your not my Daddy! Your monster!" She ran off crying. I raced after her and she was crying on Rydels bed.
"Aww Lydia!" I gave her a big hug.
"I'm sorry for being mean Mommy!"
"Hey it's okay! You were being really sweet by sticking up for me!" I say.
"B-but everyone hates me!" She sobs.
"We don't hate you! We all love you!"
"Sure?" She asks. "100%" I smile.
I cleaned her up and we went back downstairs. Riker wasn't there. She went and sat on Rylands lap.
"I'm going to be four soon!" She says.
The three youngest Lynches, my daughter & Ratliff were soon hanging again. I sat beside Rydel.
"She says a lot" she says.
"I can't believe she said that!" I say.
"What she said was true. He made you cry. He made you cut and bleed. He lied a lot. He's not her Dad..."
"This is all my fault! I should have dealt with the fact that me and Riker were never meant to be!" I say.
"It's not your fault!" She says.
"It is! It always is!" I got up and went to the bathroom. I let a few tears slipped and left the room."I'm sorry" I say as I say again."Go lay down in my bed" she orders me. I nodded and left. Then I fell asleep peacefully.

I wake up and Del & Riker are talking.
"Riker let her sleep!"
"I wanna talk to her!"
"You've done enough talking!"
"Rydel please!"
"Riker it's my room. Get out"
"Rydel-"
"Go. Please?" I heard the door slam and I sat up. "You heard?" She asks.
I nodded and swung my legs right so I was sitting properly on the bed.
"He wanted to tal to you. I said no"
"Thanks" I say, standing up.
"Let's go get some food" she says.
We went downstairs and saw some Pizza on the table. We grabbed a slice each and sat down and talked.
"Rydel do I annoy you?" I ask.
"No! Your my best friend Lena!"
"I feel like everyone's annoyed at me'!"
"We're not Lena! Don't worry!"
I'm so lucky to have a great friend like Rydel. And all the other Lynches and Nat and Grace x