He Doesn't Even Know I'm Alive! | version 1

13: Open Cuts

•LENA POV•
"WAIT!" We all turned round. Riker!
"We'll wait for you in the car" Ry says.
"Thanks guys" I say hugging them all.
They all waited for me and Riker ran over. Dammmmmn I'm nervous!
"I didn't know you sang" he says.
"I don't but I did it for you" I say.
"Lena I shouldn't have been so rude to you and... I'm so sorry"
"Don't say sorry. I ruined your relationship. I can't get over you. It's been 5 months and I still like you"
"Why didn't you say so?"
"Because you and Jenna were so happy together. I was jealous of you both"
"You know Jenna cheated on me"
"What?" I ask.
"Well we kinda..." I cut him off.
"Your really loud" I say. He blushes.
"Anyway a while later she said she was pregnant but I know it wasn't my baby"
"Slut" I mutter.
"Wow you really hate her!" He laughs.
"She ruined my life. I will ruin her and her life and cut her face off" I say.
We both laugh. Then he kisses me.
YESSSS! We heard awes from the car and we pull away laughing.
"We're gonna see a movie. Wanna come?" I ask. He took hold of my hand. I take that as a yes!

After the movie we all went back to my place and I turned some music on.
"GUYSSSSS" I whine.
"What!?" They all yell.
"Sorry" I say raising my hands.
"Let's play a game!" Ross yells making us all scream as he scared us.
"Let's play sing it!" Nat says.
"And Lena VS Me" she says.
"No I'm not singing" I say.
"DO IT!" Everyone yells.
"Okay okay!" I say.
"Scared of my own image, scared of my own immaturity,
Scared of my own ceiling, scared I'll die of uncertainty,
Fear might be the death of me, fear leads to anxiety,
Don't know what's inside of me.

Don't forget about me,
Don't forget about me,
Even when I doubt you,
I'm no good without you, no, no

Temperature is dropping, temperature is dropping,
I'm not sure if I can see this ever stopping,
Shaking hands with the dark parts of my thoughts, no,
You are all that I've got, no.

Don't forget about me,
Don't forget about me,
Even when I doubt you,
I'm no good without you, no, no, no, no, no

Gnawing on the bishops, claw our way up their system,
Repeating simple phrases, someone holy insisted,
I want the markings made on my skin,
To mean something to me again,
Hope you haven't left without me.
Hope you haven't left without me, please.

[2x]
Don't forget about me,
Don't forget about me,
Even when I doubt you,
I'm no good without you, no, no, no, no

Hey! Hey!
Don't forget about me, no
Hey! Hey!
Don't forget about me, no
Hey! Hey!
Don't forget about me, no
Hey! Hey!
Don't forget about me, no"

"Lena..." Everyone was looking at me.
"What?" I ask.
"What's that on your arm?"
I look at my arm. There was blood all over it. "I think one of my cuts opened"
"I'll be back in a bit" I say walking out of the door. That was really awkward.
"Awkward" Ratliff says.
"No shit" I reply.
I didn't clean my cuts. I made another. And another. And another. I just felt like I had to do it. The water was on though. After I had to clean them. I screamed in pain as the water touched my skin. "Lena are you ok?" Rydel asks.
"I thought I saw a spider" I reply back.
Then my vision was blurry.
"R-Rydel" I stutter unlocking the door slowly. She opens it and sees me.
"Are you ok?" She asks helping me up.
"Why is there two of you?" I ask
"Oh god oh god oh god" she panics
Then I fell back and everything went black.