He Doesn't Even Know I'm Alive! | version 1

10: Broken Hearts

"Who made you do this?" Riker asks.
"You"

"Me...?" Riker looked so confused.
"Riker... I like you" I confess.
"But why would you cut over me?"
"Riker I've been crushing on your for years. Seeing you with other girls breaks me. Jenna's always been bullying me. When you started dating her I couldn't take it. Natalie's always with Rocky now. We haven't spoken in 5 months. I haven't got anyone... and I was just so jealous and upset"
"Lena I'm sorry but... it's never gonna happen" he says looking at me.
"What...?" I ask. Oh god please help.
"Me and you. I'm in love with Jenna. I don't love you in this way. We're just friends and nothing more."
He thought he was helping me out.
But really he was breaking me even more.

I can't believe he said that. I'm never going to be over him. When I got in the house Nat & Rocky were cuddling.
I rolled my eyes and went to our room.
"Hey Len-" I ignored them and ran inside and slammed the door. Tears poured down my face. Why would Riker say these things? He just made everything worse. I looked at my scars. I need more. Riker didn't even care! All he did was ruin me even more. I went on Twitter and guess what? Natalie posted a tweet about me and Riker! And now people ship us!

Nataliee679: who's a Rena shipper? I know I am!😏😍 #Rena

I've gained so many more followers and people are dming me and stuff. I exited Twitter and laid on my bed. Why are things going so bad? I've lost my best friend, my friend who I had a crush on and probably all the Lynches. Wait a sec! Ryland! I haven't spoken to him yet! I found Rylands number and called him.
"Hello?" He asks.
"Ry! It's Lena!" I say
"Lena you idiot I was about to call!"
"Too bad loser" I tease him.
"Can you PLEASE come over!? Jenna and Riker have been making out in his room for ages and I'm so bored!"
"I'll be there in ten" I say. I ended the call and before I left I covered my scars.
I don't want a crying Ryland okay?
"Hey Len-" I ignored them and left the house.

"RYLAND!!!!" He spotted me and I jumped into his arms and we fell.
"Ow!" I whine. I get up and help him to. "I was thinking we prank my siblings then just have a whole lot of fun!" Ryland suggests.
"Great idea!" I say. We high fived and went into the house. And we had so much fun! We played Wii, watched TV, ate food, swam in the pool, hung with his parents etc. When Ross came home he hung with us to. He made a gross drink and they tried making me drink it. "NOO!" I laugh. They kept trying and we were all laughing. I didn't notice but my head was on Rylands lap and I was laughing so much.
"Hey guys" we look up and see Riker. I ignored him. "Ryland you need to wash your jeans" I say pointing to a stain. We all laughs again. "We're gonna go now." Riker says. I got up properly.
"Uh yeah the thing is... we don't care!"
The two little lynch boys laugh with me
"Don't worry I'm kidding, bye" I say putting my head back on Rylands lap laughing. We're all crazy okay?
Riker gave me a mean look and they went. I heard him mutter bitch.
"Hey don't call you girlfriend a bitch!"
I yell. We laugh again. The door slammed."Oooh he's Angry!" Ross says.
"Okay now let's prank!" Ry says.
"Wait! Let's prank ourselves so it's not obvious we did it!" Ross says. We all nod and went out separate ways. I put blue hair dye in Rikers shampoo. Then I smashed a picture of me and him. Hey he didn't make my life easier! Then I put fake bones in Rydels bed. Then I put a fake snake in her make up draw. I went back to the boys who put whipped cream in Rockys bed, fake spiders in Ross's bed and stones in Rylands pillow. We all high five and went back downstairs.
"We know you like Riker" they say
"Eh don't matter. He knows to" I say
"Riker told us" Ross says.
"Guys where's my phone?" I ask.
"It's in my room. And so is your wallet. You got pranked to so its not obvious it was you either" Ry says. "Thanks" I say.
"So what happened at the park?" Ross asks. "Long story. Got time?" I ask.
"Yep" they say. Alright then...

"I got to the park and sat on a bench. And he sat beside me 10 minuets later. I got up but he pulled me back. "Lena please! You can't ignore me forever!" He begs. "I'm fine with it" I reply. "Well I'm not!" He says. I gave in. I was trying to hard not to cry. I think he noticed. "I won't judge you if you cry" he says. I bursted into tears. I cried into his arms. I always screw things up. He ran its hands up and down me arms... and stopped when he felt a scar. "Please tell me these aren't what I think they are!" He says. "I'm sorry" I whisper." You could have died! Why would you do that to yourself!? Who made you do this!? Have the fans been hating? Has anyone said anything? Was it Nat- " "Riker" I cut him off.
"Who made you do this?" He asks.
"You" I said.
"Me...?" Riker looked so confused.
"Riker... I like you" I confess.
"But why would you cut over me?"
"Riker I've been crushing on your for years. Seeing you with other girls breaks me. Jenna's always been bullying me. When you started dating her I couldn't take it. Natalie's always with Rocky now. We haven't spoken in 5 months. I haven't got anyone... and I was just so jealous and upset"
"Lena I'm sorry but... it's never gonna happen" he says looking at me.
"What...?" I ask. Oh god please help.
"Me and you. I'm in love with Jenna. I don't love you in this way. We're just friends and nothing more."
He thought he was helping me out.
But really he was breaking me even more"

I was trying not to cry but I just gave in. The boys hugged me and I was crying so hard. "He's such an ass!"
Ross mutters angrily.
"I can't believe he said that" I cry
"Don't worry, we'll be here for you" Ryland says. "Yeah if you ever need us just call and we'll hang with you"

Rocky came home - with Natalie. They went upstairs. Ugh. I rolled my eyes and carried on talking to the boys. Then soon after Rydel and Ratliff were home to. They saw me and practically jumped on me. They practically yell:
"We've missed you so much!"
Aww they're so sweet. They decided to hang with us to. We were all talking about seeing a movie tomorrow.
"Can we not invite Riker?" Del says
We all agree. "Jenna can't come to"
We all agree to that. "Can Courtney come?" Ross asks. "ask her" i say.
She can't. She has modelling.
"What shall we watch?" Ratliff asks
They all turn to me. "Don't ask me I'm shit at choosing movies!" I admit.
"What about...Alvin and the chipmunks 4?" Rydel suggests. We all agree to that
"Are Lena and Nat staying?" Stormie yells from the kitchen. "YEAH" Ross yells back. "Aw thanks Ross" I say ruffling his hair which he hates.
"Imma go talk to your Mom. She seems cooler than you guys" I say making us all laugh. I went to the kitchen and said hi. "I know you like Riker to and I ship you guys!" She informs me.
"Aww your a really cool Mom" I say making us laugh. "Can ya call Ratalie and Rinna?" She asks. I nod. I went upstairs and heard laughing from Ross & Ry's room. Why are they in there?
I knocked. "Come in" Nat yells. I open the door. "It's time to eat" I say.
"Why aren't you guys in Rocky and Rikers room?" I ask. Nat bit her lip and so did Rocky. "We didn't want you to know this but..." Natalie started.
"Jenna & Riker are..." Rocky continued.
I knocked on Riker and Rockys room door and I heard Jenna "God Riker I love you" what the actual hell...
Oh my god. I flew downstairs and bumped into Rydel. "Sweetie what's wrong?" She asks. I was crying. Again.
"Don't tell anyone that I'm crying!"
"I won't but tell me what's wrong!"
"Jenna and Riker..." I cry.
"Where they..." I nod. She hugged me.
"I think I should go" I say
"No please stay! You came to hang with us and that's what your gonna do"
"Ok" I smile. We went to eat and I say beside Ross & Rydel. Rocky and Nat come downstairs to. Nat gives me a quick hug. "I stole Jenna's purse" she whispers. I smirk and tried to hide my laughter. But everyone heard and we all laughed. Then Riker and Jenna came down. Jenna was smirking at me. I rolled my eyes and starting talking to Ross. Jenna sat opposite me. Great.
"So Lena, I heard you cut!" She says.
Everyone looked at me and I showed them my clean arms. "Liar" I say. But they all knew I did when I told them.
"But Riker told me! And about how you like him!" She says. Riker was trying to hide. I pulled his collar and took him outside. "I can explain" he says.
"Don't bother! I HATE YOU! You told her EVERYTHING! I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST YOU! YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!" I scream
"Lena-" I cut him off by slapping his cheek. "I hate you" I grabbed my bag and ran out of the door. I got into my car and drove back home. Crying. Again. He told her!
Everyone was calling me and texting me but i ignored it. I got home and collapsed on my bed crying.
Rydel was calling me so I picked up.
"Lena are you okay!? Where are you!?" She exclaims sadly.
"I'm at home" I say.
"Can we all come? Riker and Jenna won't be there" she says.
"I don't know..." I say.
"We're all here" she says as soon as the door opens and noises fill the house. I ran into the bathroom, suddenly feeling shy. I put some make up on to hide that I was crying. Someone knocked.
"Lena" Ratliff whispered.
"What?" I whisper back.
"I FOUND LENA!" He yelled.
Soon everyone was pounding on the door. "QUIEEEEEEEEEEET!" I yell stretching the E more longer than it actually looks right now!
"Lena please come out!" Nat says.
"Why?" I ask.
"You haven't eaten!" She yells.
"OH MY GOD!" I open the door and ran to the kitchen dodging everyone.
They all followed me as I searched everywhere for food.
"Lena I ordered pizza" Ross says.
"When's it coming?" I ask.
"Now" he says as the doorbell ring.
"Finally that took so long!" I say. We all laugh. "Your so weird" Delly laughs.
"Wow you just found out!" I say.
At least I got to eat food with my amazing friends.

Wow such a long chapter he he! About 1880 words!