He Doesn't Even Know I'm Alive! | version 1

11: Talk to me

Nat and me made up and then she went to the movie store to rent a movie as Netflix was being a pisstake. I got ready into some blue denim shorts, a white floral converse tee and black converse. I put my hair in a high ponytail and did my make up. I found some snacks even though Nat was going to buy some to. Then there was a knock on the door. I looked through the peeping hole.
Riker. "I can see you" he says.
I roll my eyes and tiptoe up to my room. Then the front door opened! I forgot he knew about the spare key!
I ran into my wardrobe suddenly frightened. "Lena!" He calls. I heard footsteps go all round the house. Then he was in my room. I was silent.
"Lena I know your in here" he says. I heard him look round then leave. I waited a few seconds then came out.
That was close.
"I knew you were here" oh no.
I turn round face to face with Riker.
"Get out" I say.
"Nice to see you to!" He says
"No seriously get out right now!" I say
"Lena you can't avoid me forever!"
"Well I really don't mind that!" I say
"Lena why are you so mad?" He asks
"REALLY!? YOUR ASKING THAT!? I THOUGHT THE SLAP GAVE YOU A MESSAGE! YOU TOLD JENNA WHAT I DID! SHE BULLYS ME! YOU MADE EVERYTHING WORSE!" I shout
"Lena can you please stop yelling?"
"NO BECAUSE YOU REALLY DESERVE IT RIGHT NOW!" I yell.
"Lena I'm sorry okay?" He says
"Sorry isn't going to make it better!"
"Well what will!?" He exclaims. Wow. He almost yelled. Riker never yells.
"How about we never talk again?"
"You cannot be serious!"
"Riker you told Jenna something that especially she can't know! She's going to tell everyone! I trusted you! And then you go and tell her about my problems! How could I ever forgive you for what you did!? Tell me!"
"Your being ridiculous. Jenna would never do that!" He states.
"How long have you known her?" I ask
"5 months" he says as I step closer.
"17 years" I reply.
"Lena please don't be mad at me"
"Too late. I already am" I say pushing past him and going into the bathroom locking the door behind me. I searched for the item and when I found it I sighed in relief. Riker never cared. He showed it himself. He kept banging on the door. "You making things worse" I say from inside. I placed the item on my skin. "Lena please don't do anything stupid!" Riker begs me.
I slit in across my skin. "Ok" I reply.
"Lena open the door please" he says
"Why should I?" I ask making another.
"I need you! Your my best friend!"
"Oh really?" I ask in pain.
"Are you cutting!?" He exclaims.
"No why?" I lie cutting again.
"You sound in pain..." he says.
"My arms aren't in pain. It's my heart"
My skin was covered in blood so I washed it under the tap and it stung!
I bit my lip to stop a scream. I washed the item and put it away. I went into the draws and found my foundation and concealer. It stung more as I put it on my arms. But it covered well.
I unlocked the door and he was hugging me tight. "Get off!" I yell.
"I was scared!" He protests.
"Riker please just go" I beg.
"Not until you forgive me!" He says
"Then you might as well live here!"
"Lena-" I cut him off with a kiss. Normally he would kiss me forehead and I would kiss his cheek if he's being sweet. But this kiss was on the lips.
He didn't even bother pulling away. He held onto me like I was his. Only his. And no one was allowed to touch me. I still love him. There's no way I'm getting over him. I start to pull away but he pulls me back. Soon we're making out. Someone clears their throat and we pull away. Natalie.
Natalie was smiling. "I KNEW RENA WAS REAL!!" She squeals running back downstairs. Me and Rikers phones were buzzing like crazy. We checked. Oh no. She posted the photo of us kissing. Now it's full of #Rena.
Everyone thinks #Rinna is over.
Riker quickly tweeted that it's not over but guess what?

@JennaBaby12: no it's totally over. For both of you.

We exchange glances. Oh god. No no...
She's out to get me.