"Asshole!"
"Oh shut the hell up! Just because you met her first doesn't mean crap!"
"I care for her so much more than you do!"
"I care for her! I never said I didn't!"
"You kissed her and gave her what she hasn't gotten since she was alive!! Then you tossed her in the drain like a puppy dog!"
My eyes opened slowly and I looked up. I was in my room and the door was closed.
Who the hell was downstairs screaming?
I got up and rubbed my eyes. I tip toed towards the stairs.
"I didn't wanna hurt Enid. I fucked up." Ron screamed at Carl.
Carl was standing there and screaming at Ron.
"Yeah you fucked up! You should've done it to someone else! Not Maci!!" Carl screamed.
"Maci has been through hell and you still did that to her KNOWING she's been through hell. Who the fuck does that?" Carl laughed.
"You! asshole!" Ron screamed.
"Me?" Carl laughed.
I shook my head as I went downstairs.
"Just stop!" I yelled and stood at the end of the stairs.
I stepped towards them as they both stared at me.
"Ron get out." I said.
"Maci can we just-"
"No I heard it all get the hell out of the house." I said.
He stared at me.
"Can you not hear?!?" I screamed.
He jumped and I shook my head.
"I don't want you ever around me or Carl EVER again!" I screamed and tears started to fall.
"Maci I'm so sorry." Ron shook his head as tears fell down his cheeks.
"Save it asshole." I said.
"You don't know how much you hurt me." I shook my head.
"I know I hurt you but-"
"Ron please just go dude." Carl stepped in.
"Shut the fuck up Carl." Ron said.
"Ron are you kidding me? Just stop!" I screamed.
"No, are YOU kidding me?" He laughed.
"Him? Really him?" He asked.
I looked at him confused.
"He's an asshole Maci!" Ron said.
"No he's not! He didn't kiss me and then never talk to me again. He didn't make me fall in love with him very quickly then next thing you know he's with another girl. He didn't do that, you did. He cares about me way more than you do." I said.
"So fuckoff and leave!" I screamed.
"He lost his Mom Maci! He killed her-"
"RON ARE YOU-" Carl about tackled him.
"Carl please go upstairs or something. I have this, I promise." I said.
His eyes were filled with tears.
He simply nodded and ran upstairs.
"Don't say a damn word or I'll kill you now." I said.
He stared at me as I got closer.
"Everyone's lost somebody, EVERYONE has Ron. You lost your Dad and your Dad was an asshole to your Mom. Carl lost his Mom and had to kill her so she wouldn't turn. I myself have never had a Mom or Dad so you can just shut the hell up. Not everything revolves around you." I said.
He froze.
"You can't do that Ron and you gotta get it through your head. You can't do that to someone, not me or Enid or any girl. You can't just come into my life like that and destroy me then leave." I said.
"You don't do that." I shook my head.
"Please just go and never say a damn word to me ever again." I finally said.
Tears were falling down his cheeks and he left not saying a word. I ran my hands threw my hair and about screamed.
I sighed then went back upstairs.
"Carl?" I asked slowly as I looked around.
"I'm fine." I heard Carl's voice crack.
I opened his bedroom door and saw him against the wall with tears streaming down his face.
"Carl.." I sighed and hugged him.
He hugged me back instantly.
"I don't wanna make this about me. I'm okay." Carl said.
"No it's okay." I shook my head hugging him a tad tighter.
"If it's about your Mom and your worried cause I don't have one it's okay Carl. I promise." I said and pulled away.
He sighed as he sat back against the wall and I sat infront of him.
"He said that shit about my Mom and it just brought it all back. I miss her so much." He shook his head and shut his eyes.
"I just didn't wanna say nothing because you don't have a Mom which hurts me even more."
My heart warmed up slowly.
Not at the fact he lost and misses his mom. The fact that he cares and understands.
"I mean I have one somewhere, I'm not sure where but my parents are somewhere. Here on earth or in heaven." I said.
"I for sure know my Moms somewhere I don't know if it's heaven but she's somewhere." Carl said.
"You don't believe in heaven?" I asked.
"It's just another lie." He shook his head.
"Carl..." I sighed.
"I mean where do you think we go when we die?" I asked.
"It's all black." He said staring at his hands.
"I don't know where the hell we go. I give up. I give up on being here and being alive cause I keep getting pushed down." He shook his head as tears formed in his eyes.
"I'm just another hassle." He said.
"Carl your not a hassle. Your perfectly perfect being here. Without you..." I paused then he looked at me.
"Without me what?" He asked.
"I don't think I would be here." I said.
"You really...mean it?" He asked slowly.
"Yeah. I mean it." I said.
He shook his head with a smile.
"No ones ever told me that before." He smiled at me.
"I mean. You keep me going and you are the only one who cares about me." I smiled.
"I do. A lot." He smiled.
I smiled.
"I mean it kinda hits me now." He looked at me.
"What?" I asked.
"If I wasn't here, I wouldn't be able to care for you. You'd still feel lost without any body." He said.
"I'd be lost without you." I smiled at him.
His blue eyes sparkled which made my heart melt.
We were becoming really close then we have ever before..which made me really happy.
