Little Things

Goodbye

it's been a few weeks now

you've moved on to new people

and gone back to others from your past,

I spent some time feeling sad and

empty and alone

but reality caught up and we are slowly

growing apart and accepting that

everything was bound to change.

there were days when I was so angry

that I could not see straight

and there were others I was so sad

that I couldn't seem to stop crying

you lead me on,

many days more than you should have

I let you play me

when all the answers were always where I was looking.

some days you are

the boy I loved and others

you are so distanced and confusing

that I do not understand why I still try.

but I have concluded

that you mean something

even when people tell me you shouldn't.

I have concluded

that we were not making mistakes

and that it is okay that we have pulled apart

I just wish

everything hadn't faded

I wish this summer wasn't slipping away

because your voice was all I heard

and now I never see you anymore.

I feel like I've pushed everything,

the memories

the feelings,

so far back that I'm not sure if it's real

and I want to bring it back

but I'm not sure how any more.

I am a very happy girl,

I love to smile

and laugh and

I love to have fun and to

meet new people.

I've made some friends

I enjoy their company,

but they are nothing compared to

the memories I had with you.

I'm not sure where things will go from here

I just know that I will appreciate my friendships

and stop searching for the great beyond.

I am content with the people I am meeting,

the people I continue to be friends with,

my family around me and 

the goals I will be reaching soon.

I am not looking for anything more than what I have

but I will do things that make me and others happy.

I hope that your days are bright,

you continue to laugh and smile and have fun

and I hope that every once in a while

you think of me

because I always give myself time to think of you.

the only thing I regret

was not saying a better goodbye to you.