I love you.
I will begin my stress-free journey over these
next few weeks with the words that have
made every day better since I met you and
tore my heart apart in the process.
I have dedicated these next few minutes to you,
to remembering the feeling
of your skin against mine,
your arms around me,
your breath on my cheek
and your hand lifting my chin up to kiss you.
I have dedicated these past two months
to loving you,
to giving you my everything-
my every thought, my every wish, my every dream
(I gave you my heart)
And very kindly you have
handed it back and told me
to keep it safe but to still wear it on my sleeve.
Very kindly you told me
that you loved me,
but now is not the time to be in love.
Very kindly you took your heart away from me
and said that I was beautiful and amazing
but now is not the time to be in love.
I accepted your words
I know that they are sincere and meaningful,
that you are swimming in emotions just as I.
I accept you
who you are, who you were, who you will become
but I am not having trouble accepting our decision
to move on.
It is a wise decision,
thought through on all parts with common sense
yet it is my nature to
never give up
and that it why I wake up alone
broken hearted and tears flooding my eyes.
To be honest I
don't ever see myself letting you go,
but that's what I said before
and I let him go in time.
When the sun kisses my skin each morning
I will always wish it were you,
when a storm blows through just before nightfall
I will always stay up and feel that I am not alone,
And when I dream
Of my lips gently caressing your collar bones I will remember how I thought
That was where I belonged.
I am done trying to create something beautiful like me and you,
I am done playing safe and throwing away mistakes,
I am finally
too blessed to be stressed.
I am finally
going to stop thinking
because things are always better that way.
Because when I stopped thinking
I found you,
so it must be easier to move on
when I'm not thinking too.
You have crashed all my walls down,
left me vulnerable and unprotected but
worry-free and not naive.
And I will keep working hard
I will keep enjoying the little things in life,
looking forward and
doing what I love and what I want to.
You have taught me so much about
myself again and
put so many things back into place
I refuse to put it all to waste.
Don't get me wrong,
I am still sad and
I still miss you so much that at times
I feel physically ill
but I am also so happy
and free
(although I never felt pinned down with you)
with all the things that are to be.
I want to share these things with you,
in any way that I can
because right now
I love you
and one day I may not,
but until then I'm just going to spend
these next few weeks
stress-free and a quiet mind.
YOU ARE READING
Little Things
Short StoryThis is my next poetry book. In a world where everyone struggles to find happiness, it's the littlest things that make the biggest difference.