5437 |l.h

• S E V E N •

It's short and I'm sorry.

S E V E N
Luke

When Mike said that Luke's plane had landed my heart sinked to the bottom of my body

"Come again?" I lean against the wall

"He wanted to be here so I told him to come, he has every right to" Mike completed

I know he has a right to be here, it's his child. But I don't want to deal with him. For months I've been avoiding him and everything related to him.

My legs were shaking and my lungs forgot to seek for air. I felt ultimately betrayed.

"You should've told me" I mutter before Dr. Austin held my body because apparently I was falling.

When I next opened my eyes I saw those blue oceans I was running from. Luke was by my bed side with his hand an inch away from touching my skin.

My insides felt like burning and an urgent need to break away started to grow in my body.

But I didn't. I stood still like nothing was troubling me.

"Say it" Luke whispered. Even though I did my best to drown my urge to get the fuck off, he knew I wanted to. He always knows. "C'mon, say it"

"Get out" I mutter, not even recognizing my own voice

I thought he'd frown or snap back, but he smiled.

"I missed you" he smiles again, displaying his deep dimples "I missed your honesty, it's been a while since the last time you told me what you're thinking" I got the hint of annoyance, like how he's bringing up the fact I've lied so much

"You asked for it" I say back, looking down. I just caught one single glance of his eyes, but didn't looked properly at them.

"You know I've always wanted to know what'd on your mind" He keeps trying to pierce my eyes but I keep slipping away

I wonder where Mike, Ashton and Dr. Austin are.

"It hasn't changed" he mutters after a deep silence. I look up to face him and his lips crack the smile I've been dying without "Not in here" he rests his hand on his heart.

I look down again. Hating our bad timing.

"Too bad everything else has" I say before a nurse comes in the room followed by Dr. Austin.

"Oh, you're awake" Dr. Austin says smiling, I smile back. Luke catches our glimpse and frowns

"Is everything okay?" Luke asks

Oh, of course it is. Our kid is dying, my body that was supposed to protect it isn't doing it very well. You're living far away with that hoe called Olivia and I'm here being miserable. Don't worry, everything is perfect.

I roll my eyes

"Are you sure you wanna go through with it?" Dr. Austin walks around the bed to kneel by my side. He ignores Luke's question

I sigh and nod. Without even looking at Luke.

"May I interrupt and ask what will be done?" Luke speaks with annoyance in his voice

"I've decided to take the baby out" I speak fearing the tears that might follow my voice's trace "Dr. Austin will perform a caesarean and I'll, I mean, we'll get to hold the baby for as long as it breathes" I say trying to find peace among my words

"We-We'll hold it?" Luke gags

I nod "It sounds morbid but it's better than nothing. We won't get to raise it and watch the child grow beautifully" I feel the tears but I let them come "We won't get to watch it sleep in the crib that Mike and Ashy put together, you won't get to teach him to play the guitar and I will never drive him to soccer practice" Luke watches me break down without stopping me "So since I can't do all that, I'll hold this baby as long as he breathes"

He nods

"Then we shall hold our kid" he says with a sad tone and squeezes my hand

And there it was. The electricity running from his fingertips to mine. It felt like my body had been brought back to life. Felt like home.

"Whenever you're ready" Dr. Austin says and for the first time I looked to Luke trying to figure out when we'll be ready

Dr. Austin excuses himself saying he has to prepare the operation room and get himself ready and when I'm ready to go I should call a nurse.

Luke shifts on his seat and I know he feels uneasy. Maybe I didn't really mean to tell him to leave. Maybe I'm just scared of the feelings he makes me feel.

"I'm sorry" the words slipped out of my mouth before I intent to say it. "I was wrong" the words keep falling just like the shy tears on my face

"Liza" he whispers feeling heartbroken

"I'm sorry" I repeat, knowing that even if I say it thousands times it wont make it better "I thought I'd be stronger without feelings and without you but I've never felt more helpless"

He sighs and sits at the side of my bed to put his arms around me

"It's okay" he says. "There's nothing we can do about it"

"I'm sorry" I burry my face on the crook of his neck and cry away my sorrows

We stay in silence until I run out of tears.

"Do you want to go through with it?" He asks piercing my eyes. I don't look away.

"Only if you want it too" I complete