Memoirs Of a survivor

76. Appologise

I woke up early as always, with Nate's head resting on my stomach, smiling I pushed my hands through his hair. He stirred, and looked up at me "mm I could get used to this" I smiled and leaned down to kiss him, then sat up and climbed out of bed
"go back to sleep" I said as I pulled on his shirt and kissed him again before leaving the room and pulling the door closed. I couldn't believe I had just had sex with him, and agreed to be his girlfriend, but I had sex with him!! I thought about what had happened the night before, with a goofy smile on my face. Looking at the clock I saw that it was 6.30. Stood in the kitchen, I decided to make breakfast; I checked the fridge, and found ingredients for pancakes and waffles, as well as a selection of juice. I found coffee in the cupboard, and made my way over to the stove, looking for other things to make. By the time Nate came downstairs I had made waffles and chocolate chip pancakes, fruit, and coffee, as well as juice and other breakfast stuff. He looked around the room
"well shit, I should stay here more often, if this is the treatment I'm going to get" I grinned and splashed flower at him
"it's not all for you, silly, its mostly mine" he came and heled me from behind trailing his lips up my neck.
"I think you forgot something" I carried on whisking cream
"mmm and what did I forget" I could feel his grin on my neck and regretted asking before I'd even finished the question. He slid his hand up my leg, to just where the waist band of my knickers would be if I was wearing any, then brought his other hand into view, and hung over his fingers, were my pink and white hello kitty nickers, I put the bowl down and tried to grab them out of his hands, but he was too fast, and whipped them away from me.
"Now I didn't mention this last night, but I think I like these" he chuckled at them, looking at the hello kitty design drawn over the front of them
"oh my god, please stop" I moaned embarrassed at my childish knickers, he shook his head mischievously
"I think I'd like to see them on again" he heled them out, and watched me put them on, then admired me in them with an appreciative hum. When he finally went and sat at the table, I was redder than a beetroot, while he sat happily and waited for food. I grinned, and went back to whisking. After breakfast, Nate kissed me goodbye, he had a busy day today, so I let him go off to work. I was just tidying up the breakfast when I heard a knock at the door. I sighed, wondering what Joe was doing here.
"okay, okay I'm coming" I glanced out of the window, not recognising the car, so I pulled the curtain back on the door to be greeted by Gemma's heavily made up face "what do you want" I growled lowly through the door, she smiled
"hi Scarlet" lifting her hand for a small wave. I looked over her face, the swelling was going down, and the bruises were fading from under her eyes. I frowned, and went to close the curtain back "no, Scarlett please" I paused in closing the curtains, thinking, 'well if anything goes wrong, then I can punch her in the face again,' I sighed, annoyed that she had interrupted me and snatched the door open
"what do you want?" I gritted out again she smiled a little,
"can I come in?" I huffed and stepped out of the way, pointing her to the kitchen. I closed the door. When I made it to the kitchen she was looking around, just taking in her surroundings "if you have come here to look at my house you can leave now" she glanced me and shook her head
"no, I came to apologise" I folded my arms and looked at her "scarlet I'm sorry, I didn't know what I was doing was hurting you as much as it was," I unfolded my arms, and grabbed cups, silently offering her one, and she shook her head, to carry on with her speech "Err, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to take the stress of my life out on you, you didn't deserve it, it's just that you never cried, or screamed, or hit back so I thought you could take it" I shook my and put the cup down the fury coursing through my veins might have caused me to grip it so tight it would smash. I took a breath, and gritted out
"the stresses of your life, what were they exactly?" she shrugged playing with her hair casually, as though her actions were justified
"cheer, boys, prom, you know I was crowned prom queen, this year" she said, not noticing me get very still
"scarlet calm down" I said to myself the blood that had rushed out of my face, came flooding back. "You were like that because you had fucking boy trouble?" she nodded, checking her fingernails "you told the whole school that I sucked the football team off, because you were worried about cheer"
"actually that was Daphne," she said looking up, and noticing the very angry fighter stood across the room from her. I took a breath,
"you fucking new it wasn't true, and you still took the piss, you pushed me around and told me to stay away from your man" I started to shake, so I turned my attention inwards "it's okay Scar you need to calm down" I nodded and closed my eyes, before moving back around to look at her
"get out" I said through gritted teeth, "get out and don't come back. Consider your apology not accepted, and next time you see me run, because I might not have as much restraint as I do right now" I allowed all the coldness I felt at that moment seep into my voice as I got rid of her. She saw herself out as I set to calming myself down, wishing Nate were here to comfort me.