NCIS: Arendale

Chapter 14

"Can I see you one last time tonight?" Despite, every rational bone in my body, I want to see him again. "Yes." I whisper, Jack puts his hands on my shoulders.

He rubs them up and down my arms. I put my hands over his, stopping him. "Where will you be?"

"I'll just meet you there."

"No, I'm coming to get you. Where do you live?" Quick, Elsa think think think! "I don't feel safe at home, I'll just stay here for now."

"But someone snuck up on you here-"

"I'll stay inside around other people. Trust me, I feel a lot safer here."

"I'm not happy about this."

"Well you're going to have to be." I snap again walking away from him. "Now you really do need to leave." I open the door wide.

Jack just stares at me like I've just slapped him. He reaches for my hand when he gets close. "Elsa...please don't shut me out."

"Please don't make this harder than it has to be."

"But how will I contact you? How will I know if you're okay, happy, safe..."

"You'll know."

"But how?"

"Please just go." I whisper and turn my head away from him. I close my eyes to keep back the tears. Because if they open, it'll be like a flood.

I feel Jacks lips against my neck, as his hands rest on my hips. Then he kisses my cheek, eyes, and finally lips. I kiss him back, he tastes salty. But I soon realized it's because of my tears.

Jack pulls away. "I'm coming back tonight...I love you. Never forget that." His breath is warm on my lips. Slowly his hands leave me, and I can no longer feel him.

Finally I open my eyes, his eyes are full of sadness. Mine are as well, with the addition of the water still building up. Jack takes one last look at me, then he leaves.

I close the door slowly, then lean against it for support. The overwhelming ache and pain in my heart is too much. I slide to the ground.

Hugging my knees, I start to sing. "A million thoughts in my head. Shouldn't let my heart keep listening. Cause up to now, I've walked the line. Nothing lost but something missing.

I can't decide, what's wrong, what's right. Which way should I go? If only I knew what my heart was telling me. Don't know what I'm feeling, is this just a dream? Ah oh, yeah.

If only I could read the signs in front of me. I could find a way to who I'm meant to be. Ah oh, if only. If only, if only...

Every step, every word, with every hour, I am falling in. To something new, something brave. To someone I, I have never been.

I can't decide, what's wrong, what's right. Which way should I go?

If only I knew what my heart was telling me. Don't know what I'm feeling. Is this just a dream? Ah oh, yeah.

If only I could read the signs in front of me. I could find a way to who I'm meant to be. Ah oh, if only yeah.

Am I crazy? May-be we could happen, yeah. Will you still be, with me, when the magics all run out?...

If only I knew what my heart was telling me. Don't know what I'm feeling, is this just a dream? Ah oh...If only I could read the signs in front of me. I could find a way to who I'm meant to be, ah oh.

If only, yeah! If only, yeah! If only, yeah! If only....if only..."

My heart feels broken. The worst part is...I did it to myself.