Stuff I write and find

Part 50 Enjoy <3

I will continue to watch myself rot, until, if ever, someone pulls me out of this living hell.

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What I wanted was you with me, but all I got was pain and nothing to fill the numbness with.

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If actions speak louder than words, than I am a matter of quite nights with only the crackling of the fire beside you.

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All she ever wanted was him to feel the same way that she felt about him, then he would love himself and that is all she wanted.

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We tripped on the need to feel something.

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Please do smile at strangers, it keeps them wondering.

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I don't want to be some teenage girl who is dependent on a boy, but I feel like I am, I just don't know anymore, but I don't want him to ever leave, it would cause so much pain and heartbreak which I can't deal with ever again.

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I always wonder how much I mean to people, when you listen to a song do you think of me, a word that reminds you of a conversation we've had, our weird twisted humour that no one else gets. What do they think of me?

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My parents warned me about the addiction of drugs but they never warned me about the addiction I have of him, the one with the stupid, annoying, dorky face and a heart no one could ever hate.

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'Jesus, you are so fucked up'

'You have no idea' 

They say before their hands intertwine and a terrible fire starts flaring away.

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Could you tell me if this was all real or was it just all in my head?

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How come some get to live in such happiness, while others don't? The world is such a terrible place to live in.

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But I simply mean who would be in love with me? That's just stupid!

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Yeah and I know he is bad, but when he smiles all I see is good within him.

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'Lie to me'

'I love you to the moon and back'

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If I disappear, 

don't come looking for me.

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Thankyou for all your tragedy, I need it for my writing.

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Don't tell me I am perfect, tell me you can understand why my wrists are bloody and sore.

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I like you, but I'm too shy to tell you.

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'Do you want to be left alone?'

'I am always alone'

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Stitches, stitches, stitch up my wrists. 

Stitches, stitches, you're making me sick.

Stitches, stitches, fix my heart.

 Stitches, stitches, no matter how much I use you my life will always be apart.

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