Stuff I write and find

Part 12 Enjoy <3

Boys like you are poison but I like apples with a twist so don't ever let me go

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It's not surprising that people don't get me, 

I mean I don't even get me.

What I am a trouble teenager,

who was troubled before she went into double digits,

who deals with mental health and a disability 

who hides away from people who care 

and slowly drifts...

I am poison...

I hurt everyone I touch

how can someone ever care about me?

I am so fucked up it's unbelievable 

and somehow people are trying to keep our friendship going

I guess they are just better than me 

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It's a real damn struggle to deal with anxiety and depression at the same time.

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I miss your smile but I miss mine more...

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Every night I think I am free from your face,

that I have let it all go,

but no.

Every night you come back again,

that face of yours haunts me,

a ghost to me. 

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Time doesn't work anymore I feel,

it doesn't go the same pace,

it jumps and skips.

That's what my heart is like,

when I see you.

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 Dear Peter Pan,

take me away,

save me,

keep me,

don't ever let me go.

Your world is far better than mine.

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They wanted me to abandon you 

but all I could think about was living without you

I didn't want that

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