Stuff I write and find

Part 5 Enjoy <3

Happy girls are the prettiest

that's why I'm so ugly.

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You know how I feel everyday?

That I'm worthless, ugly, stupid,

boring person that has no reason to be happy.

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No amount of sleep in the world could cure the tiredness I feel.

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I am constantly torn between killing myself or killing everyone around me.

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I keep a lot of shit to myself because in reality nobody really gives a fuck.

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I was dying to hear someone say

that I didn't need to try so hard to be perfect,

that I was enough and it was okay.

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I fall in love with anything self destructive.

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The worst kind of sadness is where you try to ignore it

and then it gets so bad that one day you just breakdown

and you can't take it anymore.

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What is depression like?

It's like you're drowning,

except you can see everyone around you breathing.

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I don't want to die,

I just want to be happy.

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Just because someone looks happy doesn't mean they are

because even a white rose has a shadow.

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Let yourself move to the next chapter in life when the time comes.

Don't remain stuck on the same page.

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I look in the mirror

and what do I see

a sad little girl

staring at me.

Eyes brimmed with tears

face red and raw

I see all the hurt

no one's seen before.

This little girl

is me when I was young

she is crying because

she has seen what I've become.

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