Part 42 Enjoy <3

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by lydiaisamazing
by lydiaisamazing
                                        
                                                  I could disappear forever and no one would notice.
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                              You will never know what these thoughts do to me.

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                              Do you ever feel like you're not wanted?
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                              The worst kind of sad is not being able to explain why.
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                              My head is a horrible place to be.
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                              She didn't want to be alone.
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                              My biggest fear is that eventually you will see me as I see myself.
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                              "You're not alone."
                              Yeah I know I'm not alone, my demons are with me 24/7
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                              People can't save you but they can fucking destroy you.
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                              Hell is filled with people like you.
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                              We all are haunted by the thought that we're wasting our life.
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                              Real music isn't on the radio.
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                              Wipe your tears.
                              You're better than that sweetie.
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                              I'm just a shitty teenager with great taste in music.
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                              This is your life
                              You better start living it before it's to late.
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                              Is there any escape from society?
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                              Dance with me?
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                              We don't believe what's on the TV.
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                              Don't forget the people who have done you wrong.
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                              This world sickens me.
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                              It's difficult to follow your dream. It is a tragedy not too.
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                              It's getting bad again right when I thought it was getting better.
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                              I feel like everyone of my friends hate me, I can't help but think. When I close my eyes all I see is doubt and lies and time and time again I feel ashamed to believe their lies.
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                              We avoid each other at school and I remember swearing that it would never come down to this when we won't even look at each other and our friends just don't know what to do with us anymore.
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                              Spilled writing, spilled ink, drunken coffee and cut up wrist. Fake smiles and eyes that lie. Long sleeves to hide the truth, we will always deny. 
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                              Our writings are our feeling you can't deny, 
                              it's only a matter of time until we say goodbye,
                              full moons and dead eyes 
                              poetry will be our last goodbye.
                              I don't when I will give up but maybe they will look through my writings and see my pain,
                              see our pain,
                              see why we did what we did and why our lives just like our poems had to end at some point.
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