I have begun to close once again
My eyes, once open, are starting to blur
My ears, once listening, are beginning to drown
My heart, once free, has locks collecting rust
I am closing
I do not wish this
I want to stay in the open
I want to allow myself to fall
I want to allow myself be caught
But, I can't
I want to stay in the open, but I don't want to be revealed
I wish to fall, but I fear the different pain
I want someone to catch me, but I fear no one will
I know
I know that, once revealed, I can not crawl back to my world
I know that, once fallen, I will not stand back up on my two feet
I know that, once caught, I won't stand alone again
I know
I know this all and it causes me to fear
I fear and it causes me to close once again
I have gotten too close
He might find the real me
He might find my past
My gory, depressing past
My sin filled, lacking past
He might find it and then he would leave
He would leave, not me
And I can't take that
So, I am closing once again
I am leaving
I am leaving because I got too close and I can't have him hate me
I can't lose him like that
Not like that
So, I am leaving
Closing
Forbidding
I am forbidding myself from friendship
Family
Love
I am forbidding myself
I forbid it
I forbid.
ВИ ЧИТАЄТЕ
Inside the Minds of the Unspoken
ПоезіяA journey occurring over the course of three years in which unspoken thoughts can finally become reality.